preciousSIMPLElife

2006-09-09T20:54:00.001+08:00

somthing wrongg with this blog..!!!!!
cant post..
then make new de.
now can post. wth man.
now using backk this. -.-
sorry peoplee..
08august2006
remember my previous post that says..
about my sixth sensee.
feels tad something is going very wrongg.
yeahh. indeed.. haiis.
it happened ytd night.. ard 1plus..
my father ask me go balcony..
then he started of by sayingg..
since u like no interest in studying.
monday sch reopen i go sch tell tcher.
you drop out of school..
blahblahsblahhss..
then says everytime he come home.
see me sitting in front the comp.
smsingg. chatting on phonee.
then he ask who is it.
i didnt tell him lahs..
then he asked my for my hp.
he ask me go my room takee.
then i go lahs.
then i flip open my hp. wanna delete msges.
change the namee..
but then he said dunnid press anythingg.
just give me.
i have no time to change or delete.
then give him le. no choicee.
then went bbackk balconyy.
then he flip open my phone.
tad time. i immed turn my back on him.
then he ask me somethingg.
i didnt answerr him..
then went backk the room.
tads was when he flip open my phone.
if i'm not wrong.
he went to my inbox and saw the name.
then he askk me smthh.
i didnt says anythingg..
he asked me how long i'm goingg to hide it frm him.
i didnt said anythingg..
he said loads of things lahs..
then finally i told him.
just started not long ago only..
then he asked abt tad time the add i gave him.
i said tad add is real de.
then he says. the name and hp no.
is not the person de rights..
he said tad he knew it all along.
he just didnt want to expose..
he wants to see how long i'm gonna hide it frm him..
also said tad.. he been testing me.
just tad i didnt knoee..
all these and all that..
he knoes tad i lied to him through the days..
he just didnt tell me..
also mentioned tad..
sec2 have relationship.
is way too early..
say where got heart to study.
blahblahblahh.
ytd is the night tad i cried till... *ahhhhsss.
he talk till ard 2.30 then stop.
i 3plus then slpp..
but he didnt ask to break or anythingg..
now wad i can do is to study hard.
prove to him tad i can manage lorhs.
tads the one and only thing i could do..
i think he gonna tell my mama.
then my mama will come
pestering me to tell her EVERYTHING.
hopefully he didnt tell my mama lahs..
todae woke up at 12pm..
woke up with a swollen eye.. wth. so ugly.
then aunt came. ask wanna go out..
then i bo mood marhs.
told her dunno lahs..
go here go there.. also the same de.
then she says go lahs.
then go change and blahblahblahs then go lorhs..
then she bought me a shirt and a skirt.
total of 83$$ =X
so freaking ex siarhs..
then 4plus reached homee.
ard 5plus, go my room..
started doing my maths hmwrk.
**argghhss. i forgotten most of it. =(
referred to notebook. then slowly do.
completed it aroundd 6.30pm.
so damn longg. hhaaa.

08august06-MIDNIGHT
my mama knoe about it le.
come home le.
keep saying got *ahems* liaos dunnid marmi le..
isnt she lame. hhaaa. -.-
todae like i make him uphappy like dat =/
sorry lahs kiies, i love you alrights..
dunn like so moody le lahs.
see u like tad i want cry siarhs. ='(
rraahs=*]
#mango92

2006-09-07T23:30:00.000+08:00

todae go out at 1plus..
then frm 2.30 onwards..
father keep callingg.
called about 3times.
untill about.. 3.30pm then stopped.
then my family called ard 3 times also.
stopped at 4plus.
wth man. hate this the most.
hate it when he calls and check on me.
hate it totally.. like spoiling my trip siarhs.
hate hate hate hate hate it.. !!!!
went tmp.
when going up the escalator of tmp mall..
saw ernest. donovan. huda and nabilah
on the going down escalator.
this is fate man. -.-
lols.. hhaaaa.
nursie keep orh hor-ing hhaaaa..
dunno wad he orh hors for.. lols..
nursie is BAD xDD
you GOOD lorhs. go out. never jio de.
like dat de lorhs.. hhaaa. xDD
nursie is BAD.. hhhaaaa..
okok lahs. dont bully lerhs. hhaaa..
went in popular..
come out tad time saw wye lin and samantha.
then went arcadee. saw some friends..
luckily u got the used ticket for me.
if not arhs. i dunno wad to show to my father le.
PHEWw..
luckily luckily.. hhaaaa..
p.s; i only wants one. u gave me five. hhaaa. thanks man.
can say my friends de.. hhaaa. xDD
ard 5.45pm took bus no. 3 go home.
reached home aroundd 6.45pm like tadd lorhs..
cook noodles eat till 8pm. lols..
then talked on phone till 8.45pm.
then 9pm then go bathe.
after bathingg. watched tv..
after tadd.. use comp again lorhs..
then now talking on phone while bloggingg..
luckily my father neverr say anythingg to me
ever since he come home man.
it's like some cold war going on heree. hhaaaa.
dont care =X
oklahs. got to stop hereee.
dunno wad to continue le. lols..
sarang haeyo..
rraahs=*]
#mango92

2006-09-07T00:55:00.000+08:00

my sixth sense.
makes me feels as if something..
is goingg to be very wrongg.
something is not gonnaa go right..
wth.
nevermind. jus sixth sense.
dont believe.
dont believee.

rraahs=*]
#mango92
sarange haeyo

2006-09-06T22:11:00.000+08:00

woke up 8plus..
then 9.15am left to takee bus.
to school for just one lit test.
stupid isnt it..
cant it wait till after the holidae?
cant understandd why she makes us
go backk during the holidae to just takee
one test.. haiis.. nevermindd.
the test okok lahs.
dunno can pass not.
not much confident.
if were to pass..
think will just pass border line nia..
test ended at 11am..
after the test..
filled in name and email address..
reached home at 2plus..
the whole day slackkedd.
did nothingg.
when i reached home..
slack a while..
then my mother came to me..
keep pestering me to tell her if i had bf or wadd.
am i in a relationship or wadd..
i'm so deadd..
i havent touched any of my holidae hmwrkk.
wad am i going to do?
just no interest to do ehs.. =/
seriously. dunno wad happens to me todae..
just now feeling kind of frustrated..
dunno why i feels this way too..
now i feels talking to my mum.
i wanna spills all my troubles to her.
but then.. my father is home..
dunn wanna let my father kpo.
so i didnt talkk to my mum..
i think u should ask urself, girl.
is it worth it? think it through..
dont keep it to urself..
let it out to someone whom u trust..
bottling up ur feelings dont helps..
trust me..

rraahs=*)
#mango92
sarang haeyo.

2006-09-05T22:23:00.000+08:00

todae went out at ard 12.30pm
then came home aroundd 8.10pm. lols.
wooo.. lols. shiiokk.. hhaaa.
siians.. tomorrow need wake up at 8am.
9.45am got to reach school.
got literature test. wth man..
haiis. why cant wait till sch re-open then give...
alamakk siiaa..
dunno if i can pass not siarhs. =X
if pass arhs. think is just pass border line nia.
hhaaaa.. aiiyahs. better than fail rights. =/
hrmm.. wad to write nehs..?
dunno lehs..
think i shall end heree..
iLOVEhim; SARANG HAEYO =*)
thingsAREgettingBETTERasEACHdayPASSES=))#youMAKEmeBELIEVEinMYSELFwhenNOBODYelseCANhelp
**IwannaFLYlookingINyourEYES
#mango92

2006-09-05T00:50:00.000+08:00

had a chat with my parents just now..
didnt chat for a very very long time le..
erhms.. i think frm 11plus talk talkk till ard12.30
think got more than an hour..
talk so muchh. dunno my father understand not.
i think he understand bahs..
he says wadd he wont force me to do wad i dont wish to do.
he also said that he cant stop me from going out..
blahblahblahh..
then talk talk talkk..
dunnoe whyy he talk till relationship theree. -.-
that part i sians till =.=
okok. now goingg 1am lerhs..!!!! =/
okays. i seriously need to slp.
my eyesbag getting worst. wth.

2006-09-04T21:12:00.000+08:00

was pissed off in the morningg.
around 7 like that.. siblings keep calling me wake up.
lols.. i told them 7.30 then call me wake up.
then i think i went back to slp.
then my hp vibrated. cos got set alarm.
then 2mins after the alarm.
received a msg..
then went washed up..
around 8.35 then go take bus.
then walking to sch gate tad time..
jas msg me. said tad the HE make up lesson cancelled.
then i was like wth..
then i called her. ask her how she knoes.
she said those who gone earlier.
was chased out.. 0.o
then after much thought..
we decided to try our luck to go in.
yeah. we got in.
go canteen sit sit sit.
ms juliana was late..!!!
hhaaaa. then she says study in canteen.
we was like aiiyos.. hhaaaa..
then she revised lorhs..
then around 10am bahs.
she says give 10mins breakk.
then in the endd. bcome ard 30mins breakk.
hhaaa... then she revised through faster then usual..
then finish at 10.45am.
wooo.. 15mins early release.. =D
then after tad.. went to have breakfast/lunch??
aiiyahs.
breakfast=lunch.
lunch=breakfast.
hhaaaaas.. =X
eat damn slow.. hhaaa..
then like dat..
then like these lorhs.
drag time..
reached home at 3pm.
then watched tv lorhs..
we talked on phone frm 6.30 till 7plus.
then go bathee.
then 8plus talked again..
talked till ard 8.45 then put down.
then msg lorhs. lols..
*his words melted my heart.
PROGRESSED*
xDD i'm satisfied with wad i have. =))
thanks for everythingg..
iiLOVEyou,myDEAR
SARANG HAEYO
#mango92

2006-09-03T17:33:00.000+08:00

yesterdae night talk on phone from 10plus till 2am.
hhaaa.. he's was at home with his friends at tad time..
yeahh.. they stopped playing at 4am.
if i'm not wrong.. then started playing frm ard 9pm..
early i knoe. i acc him on the phone till 4am..
hhaaaa. but then i very tired liaos.
so didnt accompany lorhs..
he's so sweet on the phonee..
argghhhs.. it melted my heart. xDD
i'mLOVINGit. =D
todae morning.
early morningg heard more than 6times of aeroplanes flew past.
it woke me up frm my sleep. wth.
but then i went back to my sweet slp.. hhaaa..
12.20pm i was still sleeping..
then.. i felt some vibration of the pillow.
the vibration of my handphone la.
then i answered the call. he called. xDD
then i ask him so early wake up?
then he told me..
7plus they wake up.
go play basketball liaos..
they really arhs.. not tired mehs..??
then we talked talked talked.
tml he giving me wake up call.. =))
cos tml i need go sch for the HE make up lesson marhs.
actually i intend to slp at home instead of going sch de.
but then. changed of mind. go for HE make up lesson. lols..
tml's plan- DONE=))
he's SO SO SO sweet. xDD
then we talk till 1pm then put down lorhs. lols..
yes my dear. tml will give u a tight hug de.
the whole afternoon. did almost nothingg
except studying abit of history..
then use comp..
was repeating the song BECAUSE YOU LIVE over and over again.
i'm SO ADDICTED to this songg..
hhaaa.. oh yeahh. it my addiction. xDD
iLOVEhim; SARANG HAEYO =*)
thingsAREgettingBETTERasEACHdayPASSES=))
#youMAKEmeBELIEVEinMYSELFwhenNOBODYelseCANhelp
**IwannaFLYlookingINyourEYES
#mango92

2006-09-02T19:23:00.000+08:00

jus now 2pm actually wanna call him de..
but i didnt call larhs.. hhaaa.
so qiao.. he called at 2.05pm. hhaaas..
ask whether wanna go his house
then ok lorhs.
i called my father.
tell him tad i going my friend housee..
then off i go.. hhaaaa..
reached his house 3.15.
then they spray spray.
make the room dirty.
then habe to clean up. hhhaaa. lols.
then think around 3plus.. going 4..
his mama come home.
then like dat lorhs..
after a while they left..
when we got down.
they nowhere in sight liaos. lols.
then take bus home..
he acc me throughout the journey..
then i acc him till his bus comee.
then i go home lorhs..
things are getting better as days passes.
thanks for todaee..
thanks for the surprise yarhs. =D
i just simply loves the moment
when you hold me tightly in your arms..
it's too comfortable that i can slp. =X
just simply thanks for everythingg..
yeah. we talking much more now..
but not tad much through the bus journey ehs.. =/
**underPROGRESSING
i'm so in love with you.
#mango92

2006-09-01T22:36:00.000+08:00

went out at ard 2.30pm..
went to plp's hse..
then slack slack till ard 5plus then go tm..
they go play arcade lahs..
then 7plus. went back plp's hse..
watched tv.. then 8plus then go eat..
time passed very fast..
eat till ard 9.30pm
then he acc me home..
didnt send him to bus stop..
i rushed home. cos was 10 alreadyy.
cos father say must reach home beforee him.
so i rushed home lorhs..
luckily.. i reached home bforee him..
he reached ard 10mins laterr.
then he say me wad i too much.
then after all those scoldinggs.
he went out. wthh.
he is making me rebellious..
i hate it to the core..
i'm like nothing to him.
i do good he also scold.
i do bad he also scold.
i really dunno wad must i do in order to make him happy once.
it's like i'm a bad daughter to him no matter how good i do.
i really dunno wad he wants..
i really wanna leave the housee..
i can no longerr tolerate him anymoree..
i have enough lerhs..
he will see it one day..
he will realise it.
i'm not going out with bad accompany.
now i knoe..
MY OWN FATHER DONT EVEN TRUST ME AT ALL.
THEN WAD FOR I REMAIN HERE IN THE HSE.
it doesnt matter as if i'm in the house not..
i exist or not. there's no difference..
i knoee..
COS THERE'S COMMUNICATION BETWEEN US.
we dont really talk.
he dont really care also..
so wad forr......

thanks for being there for me.
yes. things gets better each day.
i'm so in love with u.
SARANG HAEYO. =))

#mango92

2006-09-01T14:12:00.000+08:00

finally.. i manage to sleep well.
bcause not been sleeping well for the past few days..

i'm HIGH.
later goingg out.
thanks my thoughtful friend.
thanks for arranging things for us.
hhaaaaa.. u should knoe wad i talking abt lahs.
hhhaaaa.. u are simply a great friend.

i'm INSANE
hhhaaaa.. =X
i SERIOUSLY have to learn how to talk.
i need to knoe how to communicate well..
cos it's the major key to a relationship marhs..
hhaaaaa.. okokk. i'm insane=))

ok. i'm in the rush to go out now.
i will blog tonight if i come home early. =))

2006-08-31T22:08:00.000+08:00

yesterdae night..
10plus. when i lie on bed wanna slp..
my tears.. started to drop..
continiously. dunno whyy also.
dunnno wad happen..
it lasted for ard 10minutes bahs..
then.. after tad..
somethingg unexpected happens..
DAMN HYPER till cant sleep..
hhaaaa.. i gone crazyy..
30august2006. the dae.
SARANG HAEYO =))

i've no interest in studying todae.
hhaass. cos i've gone insane =))
hrrmm.. todae quite a gd day i can sayy..
cos for every teacher i knoes..
i greets. good morning *[tcher name]*
follows by happy teachers' day.. lols..
todae had the tchers' day concert at ard 11.25am
at the same time freaking overr the lit test after the concert.
cos i cant seems to get anythingg in.
i cant rememberr anyythinggg.
then in the end.. the test postpone.. =.=
when i reached home.
changed. when i wanna go out..
got this call. ms banu called..
to inform the lit test on tuesdae..
after tadd.. i rush out lerhs.
was drizzling tad time.
then dunn wanna bring umbrella marhs.
then i rush off to the bus stop..
hhaaa. then went to the bus stop..
took bus. alighted at the stop opp whitesand pri.
waited for them..
while waiting for one more plp..
saw brandon standing in bus 17.
then i was likee errrr...!!!!
hhaaaa.. okokkk.lols..
then after the one more plp reached.
took bus to plp's hse lorhs.
i cut the story short. the rest i dunn wan say here.
hhaaaa. =)) the end.

as long as we are happy.
nothing will matters.. =))
i trust u. i believe you..
you simply rocks my life todae.
>.* i'll give u more of my surprises next time..
yes. we agree. things will be better as time gets by.iloveu=))
you arhs. like keeping thinking deep..
dont think so much le lahs..
u will do well de. dont forget. u are PRO de ma. lols..
rmbrs. if u got anythingg.. must share with me ehs.
dont keep it to yourself.. not healthy de.. xDD
thanks for seeing me homee.
i noe the journey was longg.
kinda boring too rights.. =X
sorry lahs. i will learn to talk talk talk de. =))
SARANG HAEYO ;D
thanks for making me believe in love once againn..
thanks for your everythingg todae=))
simply loves it'
i'm so in love with you. xDD
#mango92

2006-08-29T22:42:00.000+08:00

damn tired todae lahs..
haiis. didnt manage to slp well for the past 2 nights.
been thinking of somethings..
it occupies my mind too much tad i cant slp..
managed to slp only for only 2 to 3 hours.. =((

i'm unable to concentrate studying maths..
dunnoe whyy lahs.. =/
are only able to concentrate studying history.
haiis. dunnoe wads happeningg..
tomorrow maths common test lerhs.
it a heavy weightage lahs.. but then.. haiis..
tomorrow lehs.. i'm still unsure of how to do some questions..
arrgghhhh.. help me. haiis..
i think i not gonna make it for tml maths test.. =X
wish me good luck man..
tml a really crazyy day for me.
test test test test everywhereee..
i tml not only have maths test.
got history and home econ also.
alamakk.. haiis..
home econ, class test.. vitamins and minerals.
think cant make it also.
wish me good luckk..
history.. think can make it lahs..
hopefully lahs.. =X
okokkk. got to go studyy lerhs..
good night. hv a real swt dream..

i just feel tad u are the who gave me tad courage..
i'm feeling happier right now..
thanks load to you.

** angel. not i dont want tell u..
is i cant tell lahs. cos.. you knoe..
when time ripes..
everything will be revealed and eventually u will knoe de..
unless... tad thing will never ever happen lahs. =))
u slowly wait and see bahs..
happy waiting. xDD

ever since then.. been feeling as if u are right bside me.
but then its all just an illusion,
which might never gonna come true..
the closest friend will it be until true reveals.. >.*
ihavefallenforhim.iistillcantbelieveit.omgg.!!iihavenointentionoflettinghimknoe=))
#mango92

2006-08-28T22:19:00.000+08:00

life is complicated
todae was okok lahs.
just a few drops of tears.
only she saw.. cos she sit beside me.
todae english common test..
okok lahs. not badd..
kinda happy todae.
thanks ehs. >.*
todae reached homee aroundd 8.30pm bahs.
hehhhs.. =))
thursdae. i wanna return late. damn late.
if possible 11plus lahs.. hahhaaaas.. =))
okok.. nothingg i gonna say now..
tads all for todae bahs.. =))
#mango92
omg. i'm actually falling for him =X

2006-08-27T19:05:00.000+08:00

i hope things can rest.
put an end to everything and start afresh..
hopefully. we can be like wad we used to be.
put the past behind us and continue with life..
i wonder.. if u would forgive me if i had done u any wrongs..
maybe i did u some wrongs unknowingly..
so here i'm to say SORRY to you.
u will see it or not. i'm not suree.
but then.. the word sorry..
came right truely and deeply, sincerely from my heart..
things were better todae bahs??
able to concentrate more on maths..
only my brain not functioning normally.
they dont wants to thinkk..
those harder question. were not able to do.
haiis.. no interest to think for hard question too.
just dunnoe whyy.
tried studying history.
nothing gets in.. so i stopped.
now. troubling with the newspaper report..
on the class acting de.
havent do yet..
i'm the only one doing it.??
the two of them dunniid to do..?
haiis. nevermind.. got used to it lerhs.
everytime like that de.. so let it be..
i wanna start life afreshh.

congratulations ehs..
found your dream girl lerhs.
must cherish her alrights.
dont let her slip awayy..

korr. thanks for being here for me when there's almst no one here..
thanks for your advices and all..
and.. dont be too nice to me la..
plp shy marhs. =X hhaaaa.. jk.. =))
your shoulder next time then i use la..
anyway. THANKS.. =D
IF you got problems.. can come to me also..
i help you de.. if u want lend shoulder also can la.
i lend you mine lahs..
MUST RMBE THIS ehs. **nevermind larhs
hhhaaaa. =))

heys. thanks for ur concern..
thanks for ur your advice too..
studyy hard ehs. jia you. =))

#mango92

2006-08-26T19:58:00.000+08:00

i read your blog..

"she's gonna regret blaming the wrong person"

he was the one who said tad..

i think u have mistaken.

he wasnt sayingg about u..

he's saying some other matter in his life.

as if i got say eur name lyke dat.

eu eurself guilty den will tink dat im saying abt eu!

TRUE ENUFF?

are u saying about me.??

i dunnoe.. if it is tad u are saying me..

the above u said had hurt me deeply.

bcos. my mind is running real wild at tad point of time.

i already have alots goingg through in my mindd.

not only this misunderstanding.

there are also my personal problems. Family problems.

Studies. Stress. Friendship and all..

i jus simply cant stop my tad silly imagination.

maybe it is all bcos of my silly imagination..

tad has cause this misunderstandingg?

i dunnoee. i seriously dunnoe.

i feels that..

u all are no longer aroundd.

i feel so emptyy in the inside..

but wad can i do??

i'm afraid to make the matter worst.

so i choose to let it be..

but will this solve the problems..

will it solve this misunderstanding..??

i don’t think so. but i just cant think of anything

To clear this misunderstanding.. haiis..

i looked through the pics and neo-prints we took bforee.

it makes me cries. i dunnoe why..

my tears just roll down uncontrolably..

my tears cant help seeing our friendship breaks into pieces.

i dunno wad i can chat with u now.

i feels as if we are like strangers..

whenever i wants peace to think things through..

theres is always no way i can have it.

just like todae.

i want peace.. but.. my hse was noisy like dunno wadd.

when i plan go out. the weather suddenly change.

it was like wad the. i dunnoe wad happening.

then i tried to study. do my homework.

but there is no way i can concentrate.

i just stared blankly into my math paper.

i cant even think of wad solution to use.

or how can i solve it..

it is really terrible. haiis..

todae slpt till afternoon 1plus

dreamt of alots of things..

theres one good. the rest not good de..

haiis.. why this happening.

i thought i cried in my dream.

but. when i wake up.

my tears was theree..

i dunnoe whats happeningg. ='((

-*DEPRESSED

#mango92

2006-08-25T18:08:00.000+08:00

i'm not a good friend.
u wont be happy with me.
you wont enjoy with me ardd..
i'm quiet. u will be bored to death being with me.
tad makes me not a good friend.

2006-08-25T17:53:00.000+08:00

cried*
i'm a NOBODY.
u dunnid tell me. i knoe..
there is no one there who TRULY cares..

things werent this way..
things went real wrongg todaee..
i have no words to decribe todae.
it is just utterly terrible..

shir. if u insist of thinkingg tad i'm the one who spreadd..
i cant help. i cant force u to believe in my words..
i dunno wad to do.
but just to left u all alonee..
it hurts me real bad.
but i cant think of any better solution..
haiis. things were never ever the same ever again..
okok. whatever it is.
it's all my fault alrights..
i'm in the wrong alrights..

haiis. he's the first one who ask wad happened.
ii cried at tad point of time.
ii didnt tell him anyythingg.
cos nothing comes out frm my mouth.
ii missed the chance to talk to him..
how much i wish tad we are not in school at tad moment..
how much i wish tad i could cry out loud in someone's arm..

i'm gonna die for maths common test next week.
wad recently happening is not the distraction.
there still much more things in my mindd..
my grandfatherr had been real stubborn.
been asking him to go for the operation thingyy.
he still refuses.. he sayd medicine will helps.
but. does it..?? NO.. it doesnt helpp..
he still gettingg heart pain..
argghh. i dunnoe lahs..
i'm so afraid that one day..
he might just pass out like that..
haiis. dunnoe lahs.. arggghhhhss..!!!!!
if all this goes on. i might go crazyy..
i dunnoe wad to do.
trying to concentrate on studies.
but i simply just cant..
my parents been working day and nights.
seldom get to see them.
night they come back. i alrdy slp.
when i wake up in the morning.. they're still slpingg.
been feeling so neglected..
like our relationship had been brought apart..
result in our communication a big gap..
i'm so afraid tad i will turn to outside friend..
which i'm tyring not to..
i dunno. i dunno..
i only knoes tadd.
i have been staying away frm homee as long as i can..
like in the mornings,afternoons and evenings.
returns only at nights..
i dunnoe. i really dunnoee..
haiis.. i'm damn stressed out.

a stop for now.
#mango92

2006-08-24T23:03:00.000+08:00

coville says..
yesterdae NIGHTperformance was a nice one..
was it really a nice one..??
i wonderr..?? hhaaaa..
make up nice..??
omgg. it's so damnn thickk..
far see nicee..
near see.. u will say wadd thee.. hhaaaa.

okokk. had a REALnice chat with her just..
she definately a REAL friendly and nice lady i shall say.
hhaaaas...

thanks S.W for the advices and all.
appreciate it loads.. =))

okokk.
i need to slp badly..
i'm so tiredd..
GOODNIGHTS.. xDD

2006-08-24T11:27:00.000+08:00

my life is in a BIG MESS
now i know. i'm nobody to them.
i exist to them when they need me.
when they dont need me. they will like..
leave me alone like dat.. it hurts me.
i wanna cry. but i tell myself. i cant.
i need to control my tears. i cant cry in front of so many plp..
they never ever treated me as their REALfriend for all i knoe.
i really dunn know what to do..
my mind is in such a big COMPLICATION.

they are forever "snatching" with me over somethingg.
in the end. they get it.
and i left with nothing by my side.
it hurts me real badly.
but i told myself to forget it.
get back on my feet. smile againn..
sometimes. i get over it real fast.
i remember one time.. it hurt so badly tad i cried almost every night..
it tooks me quite sometime to get over it.
till now. i havent really forgotten all.
some part of it still left in my mindd..
haiis.. i dunno how to forget all.
wei shen me hai yao wo you wei xiao lai dai guo??

http://data.myidol.org/var/www/html/mf/chinese/chinese.php?c_lang=&sn =安靜&mode=display&dn=&path=../lyric/chinese/Male/Jay%20Zhou/The%20One%20Jay%20Zhou%20Concert/lyric10.htm
click and go this link..
haiis. ='((

i really dont have the mood to study.
the common test next week.
NEXT WEEK lehs..!!! haiis..
i think i will fail bahs..
haiis.. i seriously no mood to do anythinggg.
i feel like wanna go away for some time..
to forget everything.
start afresh..
but how am i suppose to do so..
when i dont have enoughh moneyy..!!!

myCOMPLICATEDlife.
i can no longer hold on.
i need someone here.
whom i can TRUST.
whom i can spill all my problems to.
whom can lend me the shoulder to cry on.
even if there is no one.
my pillow will always be there..
a thingy which i cry on..

COMPLICATEDlife
-*i'm slipping off where i'm standingg.
#mango92

我难过

2006-08-22T22:14:00.000+08:00

click this link. go see.

http://video.google.com/videoplay?docid=-9101138931119175765&q=%E7%AB%A5%E8%AF%9D

2006-08-22T21:50:00.000+08:00

iiNEEDaSHOULDER.

aSHOULDERtoCRYon..

ii need to cry everythingg out..
ii feeling so,, ????
dunnoe how to say.. ='((

2006-08-22T20:04:00.000+08:00

todae had a rehearsal.
then the real performance in the afternoon.
tcher says we sang soft. =/
haiiis..

iiDONTunderstanddWHYuBLUFFme.
WHYuLIEtoME..??
I REALLY DONT UNDERSTAND YOU..
after this.. i feel like i dont wanna understand u anymoree.
i have endure enough pain through all thesee..
i'm SICKnTIRED of it already..

ii give up on all these.
hopefully everything will stop here.
a FULLSTOP.
NO MORE CONTINUATION..

the song heree..
AN JING..
tells ALMOST all in my heart.
for now.. at this moment..
i dont want to talk to anyonee.
give me silence..
silence to throw away those "UNWANTEDstuffs"

i dont knoe wad or who u are doingg for.
but i'm doing all these for MYSELF.
my decision. my destiny. my fate all lies in my hands.
i will never let it come under anyone control..

that is ME. MYSELF.
-*alone

2006-08-20T22:52:00.000+08:00

todae wake up early man.
aroundd 9plus lah. cos need go uncle's hse marhs.
ate light breakfast..
then dont wad to wear larhs.
most of the clothes washingg lahs.
then at last choose the pink colour op shirt with skirt lorhs.
then 11plus then set off to his hse larhs.
when reached.. saw this white t-shirt guyy.
thought was somee teenager age ard 18or 19 plus lahs..
but then.. he turn out to be my uncle's wife's brother.. -.-
alamakk. =X he look so youngg lorhs.. hhaaa..
mistaken him for some teenagers.. hhaaaa..
then after tad saw one same coloured shirt as me de guyy.
tad one then is teenager lahs..
behindd lookk. okok lahs. not badd larhs..
hhaaa.. but i not interested lahs.. hhaaa. =X

then we went to the wadd room..
think should be function room bahs..
then sat down. those adults talkk talkk.
moree peoplee come comee comeee.
then room was full of peoplee..
then i nothing to do larhs..
then i go stand at the door theree.
hhaaa. then suddenly got this black shirt guyy.
walked into the room..
with a glimpse. thought he malay malay lahs.
cos his skin colour damn tan man.
until i sat behind him
saw his shirt.. behind wrote wadd shaolin thingyy.
i forgot wad i wrote le. but is shaolin de T-shirt..
then got his namee theree.
then comfirm he chinese lahs. hhaaa..
he not badd lahs..

then around 4plus bahs.
went up to my uncle place..
then he thereee..
after tad. i walk to the door.
actually wanna go down find brother de..
then saw him come out. wear shoe.
wanna go liaos.. after tad he went to lift theree.
waiting for lift.
i dunnoe whyy. i just stand at the door there.
see him get into the lift and leave.. hhaaa.
stupid siarhs.. hhaaa..
okok. dont siao.. hhaaa..
then like that lorhs.
dunnoe when will see him againn.
you yuan zai jian bahs. =))

so siians. alot people leave.
then we stay till quite late then go lorhs..
then like dat lorhs.
reached home damn full siarhs..
think gained dunnoe how many kilo siarhs.
alamakk.. haiis.. =((

tomorrow tech-run at victoria threate lahs.
no school for the participants.
good hors..
good your head lah.
from morning till ard evening mann.
hopefully it will end earlier lahs.
i dunno how i'm gonna sing with
this real bad sore throat siarhs.
dunnoe how will it go.. =
hopefully will go well larhs..
ok lahs. got to go slp le.
very tired siarhs..

i wonder they have guts to show their face in sch tml not siarhs.
one thing i notice lahs.
NO OFFENCE arhs..
is that EDUCATEDstudents are NO DIFFERENT frm normal student.
EXCEPT that their STUDIES are MUCH MORE BETTER than normal students.
other than studies. all are almost the same.
this one arhs.. only a few knoes wad i'm talking abt lahs.
the rest wont knoe.
cos it's SECRET..!!! =)))

''dora
#mango92

2006-08-18T23:36:00.000+08:00

omgg.. it is really really really...
SHANG NAO JING ARHS.. hhahaaa..
okokk.. really had a real LONG LONG LONG chat just now.
was real fun. REAL crazyy. ENJOYED IT MAN.. =))
laugh till like siiaoo.. hhhhaaaa.
it been such a long time since i had such a good chat.
such a long and crazyy laughh too.. lols..
really dunnoe wad to say about it siarhs.
okokok.. CRAZINESS STOP.
but then. jus now ask shirley..
tml go wheree..
you knoe wad she told me..
go 3/4 pants. -.-
this send me laughingg like mad siiarhs..
hhhaaaa.. go 3/4 pants. first time hear lahs.
hhaaa.. and wass crazyy at tad moment..
tads whyy ii laugh even moree craziierr.
hhaaaa..
okokk.. was suppose to slp early de.
cos tml goingg out marhs..
then cos of the conversation..
alreadyy 1hours plus lattee lerhs..
okays lahs. got to go slp lerhs.
if not tml overslpt arhs.. mati mann..
hhaaass. okays lahs..
update u guys tml. =))
goodnights..
i scared i scream when slping sia..
hhaaa..
scared will laugh out loudly alsoo..
hhaaaas.. okok..
STOP HEREE..

CRAZINESS. =))
''d0ra
#mango92

2006-08-18T18:30:00.000+08:00

hey people..
i'm SINGLE okays..
single and unavailable or available.??
ii dunno larhs. jus tad i'm SINGLE..!!!!
so dont ask me if i have boyfriend or not..

''d0ra
#mango92

2006-08-18T16:10:00.000+08:00

morning when waiting for bus..
saw him and his mama.. hhaaaa.
ok. todae was damn tired lahs.
dunn have enough sleep lahs.
plus no interest to study siarhs..
cos of COL larhs.. alamak.. haiis..
was not really active during the start of PE.
then after a whilee.
got real siao.. hhaaa.
played floorball todae..
hit real hard.
strike from farr. anyhow hit.
hhaaa. fun siarhs.
then my group members like play abit dont wan play le.
then sit thereee.
at least still got artiyah and liyana larhs.
and also the goalkeeper lahs..
like dat onlyyy..

after school.. saty back do the notice board.
do lerhs.. then we all left..
go homee..
back to home sweet homee now..
finally todae no COL practice siarhs..
can relax lehs.. been busy pratising the whole week..
sing sing singg. sing till got sore throat..

never blog for so longg.
suddenly dunnoe how to blog lerhs lahs..
hhaaaa.. loss of words lerhs.. xDD

got one last thingg..
she changed. she's foreverr changing her friends.
i dunno wads happening to herr.
haiis.. nowadaes.. she keeps sticking with her tad friend.
we no longerr talking like last time lerhs..
she so near yet so far.
i cant do anythinggg.
except for tryingg to talk to her lahs..
wadever it is.
hopefully i exist before her eyes..

tml goingg out with rinaa. shirley. carmen..
go buyy thing and shopping bahs..
dunnno goingg where lahs.. hhaaa..

sundae goingg my uncle's placee..
go the baby 1month the thngyy lahs..
hhaaa. ok lahs. got to stop heree lerhs.. xDD

hrmm.. i'm looking for tad coral sec guy.
upper sec de.. cos he wearing long pants marhs..
could't be lower sec lorhs..
who sat with me in the 359bus on 15.08.06
if u are tad guy. and u are reading this..
tag at my tagboard and leave down ur email addy.
i knoe it might be impossible to find him here lahs..
hhhaaa. wadeverr it it. not much hope for it..

EMPTIEDheart..
theSPACEforNOBODY
#mango92

2006-08-07T20:51:00.000+08:00

ALAMAK..!!!!
YOUReyesPOWERlahs. xDD
dian si wo le. OMGG.. hhaaaa.
dont even knoe who u are.. -.-
only every morning see u walk past bus stop.. -.-
;theWAYuLOOKatME, MELTEDmyHEART.
aahhhhhhsss**

hrmms.. manyUNBELIVABLEthings happeningg.
firstly is xd case..
another case is mei yun's case..
is like OMGGG...!!!! wdh.. hhaaaaa..
really very unbelivable lorhs..
it's the facts. so accept the facts. hhaaas.. xDD

todae got history test lahs.
die die le larhs.
cannot make it.
cos i forgot. =X
really ALAMAK..!!! hhaaa..
some people copyy sehs.

todae home econ practical.
do the breadd thingyy..
okay okay lahs. not badd lahs.
had tad for reccess lorhs..

after school..
got national dae celebration rehearsal..
singg singg singg.
sing our lungs out.. hhaaa..
the stand up for s'pore.
cannot make it.. aiiyos.
hhaaas. the rest ok ok lahs.
not badd larhs..
wonders.. if tml can sing out loud not.
cos tml the whole sch watching lehs.
not like todaee. only drama and dancee plp.
so less nia. of cos not nervous lah..
tomorrow the whole school lehs..
scared later nervous till nothing
come out frm mouth. hhaaaa..

so free noww. hhaaa.
okay lahs.. shall endd heree..

.let things be
i cant change the facts
''d0ra
#mango92

2006-08-06T17:33:00.000+08:00

Am I Invisible To You?
I see him walking in the halls,
But he acts as though I don't exist.
He's always with his friends-and mine
And yet, he pays no heed, or time.
Why doesn't he see me?
Am i really invisible to him?
It's got me stressing out!

We have two classes together,
And i', always looking in his direction
So why doesn't he notice me staring at him?
He looks right through me.
Why doesn't he notive, or offer up a little smile?
Am i really invisible to him?
I'm stressed!

I see him every dae at lunch,
But he never says a word.
I watch his every move,
But he doesn't seem to care.
Why doesn't he see me?
Am i really invisible to him?
Talk about stressful!

I think of him all the time,
Can't he see? Doesn't he know?
He talks to my friends, but never to me.
Why doesn't he notice me?
Why doesn't he see me?
His acting like I'm invisible
Is really stressing me out.

If I Could Wash Away My past
Because of my past,
Awful and dreadful I've been cast.
I feel lost, knowing not what to do...
Where to go now or whom to turn to.
Totally stressed... inside and out.

Because of those days
Stumbling around in a haze,
As my beautiful candle burned out.
Shadows now haunt me...
Stressing me...inside and out.

I'm clearly not here.
I have lost all that was dear.
I should give up-or perhaps already have.
I feel my life is over, there is no slave,
Only stress... inside and out.

I'm embarrassed and hurting,
And so terribly ashamed
Guitl-ridden and sorry for the troubles for others
On whom I've blamed. For them, and me
I cry... inside and out.

Through my fingers life has slipped,
My heart feels pummeled, broken, ripped.
Can i throw these dark memories into the sea,
Like cremated ashes, all that old me?
Cleansing... inside and out.

My soul craves a new start,
Need to jumpstart my heart.
Could i really start over again?
Am i sincere, a fool, or fooling?
Another pretend... inside and out?

I need fresh wax, a new candle mold
A spirited scent for someone to hold,
To light it and wish for sweet inner-peace
To burn at one end, the old life to cease.
No more stressing... inside and out.

I pray the lost child hiding in me
Will come take my hand, help me to see
I'm not really alone, just lonely inside.
It's stressful world where "little me" hides.
Time to evolve... inside and out.

My chrysalis is hard, not easy to break,
Endurance i know, but the goal to re-awale
Means to re-love myself-and treasure that wealth.
I've got to commit mind, body, soul...
Time to de-stress... inside and out.

extracted from;
teen talk:the stress of life in "teenville"
A taste-Berry Teen's Guide
to managing the STRESS and PRESSURES of LIFE

2006-08-05T23:17:00.000+08:00

alamak..
MILUBING GOT champion.
soul and lucify.
aiiyahs. milubing not bad also.
at the end they so damn high lorhs..
tads all of superband thingyy..

todae COL rehearsal was not bad lahs.
improvement made..
the dance was crazyy.. hhaaa..
had fun.
afterr the rehearsal.
actually goingg tmp this fashion de.
buy my skirt.
but then meetingg them at 2pm.
no time le.
so took bus to whitesand mrt station lorhs.
then went toilet changee and blahh..
then meet stanley. kaye. xd and ezekiel.
at bus interchange..
then took bus 17 to bedok theree.
on the wayy theree.
on the bus.. kaye's mother called.
asking her to go backk.
so.. she no choice but to go back lorhs.
then xd acc her bahs..?
then me. stanley and ezekiel went..
book the studio and went in jam first.
after tad xd comee..
then we play half way..
the uncle call us stop..
time up. stupid lehs him..
cant even play a whilee moree mehs.
since there's no plp waitingg.
and there's otherr room unoccupied..
no choice. we went off lorhs.
walkk to east point..
then go safari walk walkk.
it become so small.
not nicee de..
then saw joey there.
dunnoe if he saw me lahs..
then go to eat lahs.
cos didnt had lunch..
so i ate char siew wan ton noodle.
the soup damn salty lorhs.
the wanton meat arhs.
like siew mai de meat..
not nicee de.. lols.
standard not good at all..
after eatingg. going out..
saw yu wei and one of his friend theree.
if i not wrongg is him lahs..
dont think he saw..
then went home lorhs.
then like dat lorhs.
siians..
i need to studyy..!!! argghhh.
its killing me man. =X
memorizing all is killing my brain cell.
argghhhss.. hhaaas.
ok. i donoe wad i'm bloggingg.
so i shall end heree lahs..

.let things be
i cant change the facts
''d0ra
#mango92

2006-08-03T18:23:00.000+08:00

didnt post for quite sometimes..
think i will be posting lesser lerhs.
cos busyy marhs. no time post lahs.

hrmm.. alot of things happened
during this few days..
have happy also have sad de..

well.. let's talkk abt todae bahs..
todae had history test lorhs..
difficult sehs.. no multiple choice..
all write ur own answerr.
i think i wrote alot of craps siiaarhhs..
dunnoe lahs. i also dunnoe wad i write.
lols.. i jus scribble down wadever i thought
of.. for tad particular question lorhs..
i dont even read after completingg.
i dont knoe if its all relevant not.. hhaaas..
nevermindd. =X i'm not gonna pass well.
i thinkk so.. it's upon 30. argghh..
hopefully cann get 20 lahs..
tad would be enough le.
if it is possible to get 20 and abovee
of coursee great lahs..
but think impossible lahs..
wadeverr it is.. the test is overr.
now wad can i do.? nothingg.
jus wait for the result lorhs..
tcher todae collect paper from me.
then say wadd. i have high expectation from u.
wth.. i think i will disappoint her bahs..
i wont do tad well bahs..???
aiiyahs.. i dunnoe lahs..

todae lit class. boringg.
funny too lahs..
tcher ask ezekiel to stand.
then he stand and sit down.
hhaaa. tcher put the chair away frm him.
he take back and sit down.. hhhaaa.
then shafiq joke got plp wanna jump down.
hhaaas. nonsense man. lol..
tad man jus stand at his windoww. hhaaas..
i was doingg my english newspaperr articlee.
cos forget do. jus nice i finish..
ms chua comee.. hhaaas.
then i went to give herr..
then like dat lorhs.
after school.. didnt go home lahs.
stay in school. at class.
nothing to do. then i and kenneth
go sweep the floor. kinda cleann man.
loves it. the cleaner comee in.
dunnid sweep. jus empty the wastepaper basket
then go out lerhs.. hhaaa. nothing for him to sweep.
he say thanks you to me.. hhaaas..
funnyy.. wad for say thank you.. lols..
actually goingg homee with stanleyy de.
but then sweep havent finish marhs.
then i told him..
if u wann go. then u go first lorhs.
then he go with sam bahs..
then like tad lorhs..
esther scold plp.
her classmate.
dunn really knoe wad happen lahs.
then mathew says. watch free show.
collect moneyy. hhaaas.. funnyyy.
i see she scoldingg some plp.
then i nevr see le. i went back to class.
continue with my sweepingg..
afterr tadd..
ezekiel theyy all left..
then i was suppose to go home right after sch.
to studyy de. but then.. i didnt..!!! =X
then i help mei yun and jasminee..
frm them i saw how buddy treat each otherr.
they are quite different from during sch hrs.
and after sch hours.. mei yun so caringg lorhs.
she bought 10 nugnets.. then dunnoe who askk
why buy so manyy. she says cos scared jas hungryy..
so she buyy moree. then she cann eat marhs..
how much i wish i could have a buddy like her man..
haiis.. say till friends.. haiis.. sad lahs.. ='((
dunnoe wads happeninggg..
she's a betrayer. act gd nia.. haiis.. sadd. =((
she did it on purpose.
i knew it. u dunniid to tell me.
i cann see. i cann hearr. i cann feel.
i dunniid words to say/reveal everythingg..

endingg heree.
lost of words whenever i see her.
''d0ra
#mango92

2006-07-29T21:53:00.000+08:00

i have learn a lesson from my mistakes.
it's not to tell anyone who u like/love.
cos not everyone can be trusted.
sometimes. they betray u.
i hate this.
tad person who spilled it out to plp.
i shall forgive and forget.
cos it's my mistake to tell u.
u're the first person to knoe someemoree.
i trusted u so muchh.
u are such a disappointment.
but no matter wad.
let the matter rest.
start everythingg all over again..
live life to the fullest.
.let it fade away

2006-07-29T21:39:00.000+08:00

todae woke up at ard 7plus.
then wash up andd blahhblahsblahss..
then 8am leave housee.
take bus to school.
8.30am must reachh.
alot people late.
they hadd to pay fines. lols..
then 9am. went hall for combined rehearsal.
todae rehearsal was terriblee...
no musicc.. didnt when to singg.
all thanks to no music lahs..
aiiyos.. haiis. dissapointment.
then haf finale danceee..
ok lahs. no badd. quite fun.
then after rehearsal.
go takee photos.
then took 21 to tmp.
went to library first.
then go KFC eat.
eat lerhs. go walkk walkk.
shir. carmen and me
was totally crazyy.. lols.
shouldnt say whyy lahs.
really was CRAZY.
then after tadd. 4 plus bahs.
went out from toilet.
sae ernest. xuan da. xt. and kaye.
they jus come out frm their movie.
then talkk awhilee then we go awayy lerhs.
my stupid feelingg..
thenn we went crazyy agaiinn.
then after tad 5plus.
went this fashion.
see clothes..
saw it. hees.
only bought the top..
cos not enough moneyy lahs..
lols. then after buyy lerhs.
is around 6plus liaos.
so walkk to interchange.
wanna take bus go home marhs.
then walkk walkk walkk.
walkk and see the mr bean.
then suddenly got one person
popped out in front of me..
kena shockkedd.. lols.
was kayee.
saw them again..
my stupid feelings againn.
haiis. dunoe lahs.. =((
i promise myself.
i will do it.
no matter how hard it is.
i will try my best.
reached homee aroundd 7pm.
dunn really have appetite for dinnerr..
haiis. then on comp.
go bathee.
then 9pm watch thiss show.
kinda nicee lahs.
pity the gal in the show..
no mood to blogg lerhs.
shall end here._x
.let it fade away
''d0ra
#mango92

2006-07-28T21:05:00.000+08:00

didnt knoe why.
i readd the posts whichh states
the daes we spent together..
the happy moments.
BEFORE. we were so happily togetherr.
enjoyingg ourselves.
then now.
it's like as if we are stranger.
it hurts to see things turning out this way.
tads why i made a decision.
a painful decision to me.
maybe to you.
its great. i dunnoee.??
haiis..
how much i wish tad time could be turn back.
how much i wish tad i could rewind everythingg.
how much i wish to make it a prefect one.
but it's totally IMPOSSIBLE to turn back time..
we can do nothing to our history.
i dunno wad to do.
i tell her about it.
i confide in herr.
but i didnt tell her who is HIM.
cos i didnt wan her to knoe who is tad guy.
after spillingg out almost everythingg.
i still dunn feel good.
i still feels so sad.
haiis. i dunnoe wadd to do.
i trying to hold my tears backk.
i dont wanna cry.
can i do it.?
i dunnoee.
i scared tml sing songg..
singg till cryy.
no i cant..!!
there will be alot people at the rehearsal..
i must hold back my tears till homee.
i cant cry..
i dont feel like doing anythingg.
i have no choice.
i need to let the feelings fade awayy..
he dont love me at all.
wo men shi, shi jie shang,
zui su xi de mo sheng ren..

2006-07-28T19:33:00.000+08:00

i dreamt.
of alot of thinggs..
alot of thinggs go on in my dreams.
alot of thingg happeninggg.
i dunno why will i have this dreamm.
but wadeverrr.
after i wokee up from the dream..
i already had this decision in my mind lerhs..
my heart shatters into thousand millions parts.
falling in love with someonee is jus like
a nightmare. it's so scaryy.
it turns good great friends to some strangerrss.
haiis. i have decided lerhs.
i have decided to let my love i had for him fade away.
he dont love me.
i cried many times. hopeless. haiis.
after those crys i will be alrights.
so dont worry people..
it's a real painful decision.
but i havee to accept it.. ='(

todae afterr school.
went to develop photos.
then actually wanna go tmp library de.
but then went to my uncle house insteadd.
near school theree marhs.
my grandmotherr theree.
go see the baby. so cute.
lols. then afterr tad. around 4 plus went homee.
watchh volleyball matches.
betwenen cuba[dunnoe correct not] and russia.
forgot who won, -.-
then switch to anotherr channel.
see sports de.
high jump all thesee lahs..
they run damn fast lorhs..
saw my neighbour and his friend.
outside my corridoor theree.
they modifying their bicycles.
spray paint.. take out the wheels. and blahhss..
wednesday night he jus repair or modify??
todae modify againn. hhaaa..
okays afterr tadd.
no appetite for dinner..
then here i'm bloggingg.
feels like cyingg..
haiis. so many thinggs happendingg,

my grandfather sickk.
then heart pain..
then need takes medicine to control tremble of hands.
then i thinkk mondaee need go blood test.
then dunoe wadd. haiis.
dunno lahss..
he says wadd cancer blahs.
really makes me scaredd.
wad if..??
haiss. ='(

i'm feeling so down.
so upset.
i wann someone by my side..
but there's no onee.??
i dunnoee. haiis. ='((

hope thinggs would be betterr.
haiis.. ='((

myTHOUSANDSpiecesOFshatteredHEART.
''d0ra
#mango92

2006-07-27T22:31:00.000+08:00

morning dont feel like goiingg school.
but then went lahs..
during school times..
didnt say muchh.
just mySILENCE._x
dunoe whyy kinda sadd..
feel like cryingg.
but then.. i held back my tears.
after school..
at canteen. nadhirah. nabilah huda.
keep smackingg butt. -.-
tads the time when i went abit siaoo.
lols. then in choir room. sing sing singg.
duringg the breakk.. hyperr.
butt smackingg went on between.
shirley. rina. me and carmen?
then after choir worst arhs.
hrpey like some mad people.
really hyper till err.. hhaaas..
shirley.rina.kaye.carmen.me.
smack smackk smackk. hhaas.
laugh till siiaos..
then i cant stop laughingg..
hhaaaa.
reallyINSANE-
been such a long time since i laugh so *insanely
hhaaaas..
todae was the happiest dae of all.
brought friends backk togetherr agaiinn..
happy memories once againn rewindedd.
past forgotten..
happy. happy. happy.
hope everydae can be like that..

i realised someethingg.
put the hatred behindd me.
dont let hatred take control over you.
and.. erhhmmss. i forget le =X
hhaaas..

SHIRLEY arhs SHIRLEY..
dont cry liaos. cheer up.
put the past behindd.
study DOUBLE hard for the next test lorhs..
you can do it de. JIA YOU..JIA YOU...!!! =)
thanks you, shirley.
find this blogskin.. hhaaas.
thanks so muchh lorhs.
if it wasnt for this blogskin.. i dunnoee
when i'm gonna change blogskin arhs.
hhaaas.. THANKYOU.. xDD

something not really tad good
happened this morningg??
when i got homee.
grandfather told me somethingg lahs.
then i was like.. wtf.
why like that man.
then my grandfatherr says somethinggs.
makes me wanna crys.
but i held backk my tears.
i feel like leaving the house.
cos dont wanna leave with fatherr =/
i wanna rent a room somewheree.
live there alone.
no disturbance. -*FREE
how good it would be.??

i wonderr how i'm goingg to head home tml after sch.
i dont even knoe if i dare to go back home or not.
goingg backk home is simply just likee.
sadness rise-iingg up.
eyes water-iingg. toME lahs.
BUT to some out theree.
goingg home. is a JOY to them.
but it's not for me. =((
how much i wishh tad i could have a HAPPYfamily.

i dont wants to see me cry in school again.
can i do it.??? i doubt so, =/
i wonder how tomorrow is going to be likee..

''dora
#mango92

2006-07-26T23:38:00.000+08:00

these are the neo-prints
we took on 230706.
after superbanddd thingyy.

OKOK.

okays

myFAVOURTIE

NICEE.

first time neo-print with my short fringe.
quite nice lahs. not bad.
shall takee more next timee. xDD
saturdae..!!! i wanna go for SUPERBAND..!! xDD

''d0ra
#mango92

2006-07-26T23:02:00.000+08:00

todae went to see junior.
tad was born on the 24july06.
my grandmother told me tad.
he looks like me when i was a baby.
lols.. it's good to look like me. =X
when grow up will be real handsome.
will be some yang guang nan hai.. GOOD..!!!
hhaaa. when go see him.. he was sleepingg.
so CUTE...!!!! aiiyah. forgot take pic of him.
if not arhs. suree put here de.
let u all see lahs.. hhaaas..
afterr tadd. i left first. =X
when downstairs rina housee.
takee my homeworkk from yi lingg.
then go homee lerhs.
after reachedd homee.
was aroundd 4plus.??
then start finding info on internet
for historyy presentation.
all so chimm siarhs.
dunn thinkk my classmates cann understandd.
so i erase all on the presentation. re-do.
i use info given on our history textbook.
do do do. do till 7.55pm.
finally finish lerhs.
then send to shirleyy.
she edit the font colour. cos cant see.
then i go bathee.
then had my dinner.
was HUNGRY lorhs..!!!
then watch the gautea affairs on chn55.
todae last episode. argghh. sadd. happy.
hrmm. they finish not nicee de.. =/
after tadd. went out to help brother buy food.
he this kind. wan eat. lazy to go out buy. -.-
then come backk.
watch chn8 while copying maths notes,
the show quite nicee lahs.
the Anna so cruel lorhs.
her boyfriend treat her so good
she never find out the truth jiu.. aiiyahh..
stupid also.
dunn trust her boyfriend.
flirt with another guy. hhaaas..
this is the first time i watchh. hhaa.
yeah. after the tv-iingg.
here to blogg lorhs..

how is school todae.?
dont ask me.
bcos. i NEVER GO SCH TODAE. =))
shiokk ehs.? ur head lahs. boringgg.
but it's quite fun chionggingg
the whole history presentation by myself..
feeling GOOD ehs.. dunno whyy. lols.. =))
the slides got more than 12 siiarhs.
so manyy lorhs..

okays lahs.
shall endd heree lerhs.
i need my sleeps..
i'm too tiredd.
good night everyonee. =))

''d0ra
#mango92
-put the past behind my back.
-never look back at it again.
-let it be
-let nature take its course

SILENCE~

2006-07-25T21:29:00.000+08:00

cries*
upsetED.

i feel myself hating her more and more.
didnt knoe whyy..
had the thoughts of slappingg her.
didnt knoe whyy too.
its all the sudden thoughts tad came up.
i didnt knoe whyy.
i tried to throw away tad thoughts.
but i couldnt do it..
didnt knoe whyy.
had the thoughts tad she's making
my wishes. hope and everythingg GONE..
didnt knoe why have this thought.

didnt knoe wad happened to her.
wad the cause of her to be like this.
a friendly soul to a ''heartless selfish soul''
haiis. didnt knoe why i'm thinking this wayy..
i dunno wad the hell happeniing..!!!

how much i wish tad i didnt knoe anything
about how this world is likee..
how much i wish tad i could just enjoy my life
happily. cheerful. worriesFREE.

how much i wish tad i could go back to
PRIMARY SCHOOL LIFE.
where everything is so fine.
nothing else.
everydae filled with laughters.
not sadness.
everyone is kind and helpful.

unlike secondary school life.
where everything changees.
some for bad.
some for good.
almost everydae is filled with sadness.
why is this happening.?
tried to live a happy life.
but i didnt make it.
i failed to be a everydae happy person..
plp.. friends.. all are WAY TOO DIFFERENT..
some are fake friends.
some just tried to get the secret out of you,
after they got it, they treat u badly.
some are batrayers.
you couldnt really judge a friend whether
he or she is good or bad.
a good way to find it out is let the TIME pass..
cos.. TIME REVEALS EVERY SINGLE THING
THAT U WISH TO KNOE..
for then u will knoe who is ur truthful friend.
i dont think i have onee..??
i dunnoe..
my everydae is like.
spring.
autumn.
summer.
winter.
it's either too hot or too cold.
i dunn wann to live in this situation..
i wants to live in somwhere where it is
of the right temperaturee..
i kept everything in my heart..
cos there's not really anyone whom
i cant confide in..
i did feel abit better after all the cryings..
but crying isnt the solution..
so.. been thinkingg. wad to do..??!!!
haiis. dunnoe lahs.. =((
i'm so VEXED.

somethings tad i cant reveals heree.
haiis.. it is best to not ask me wad happened..
i wants a BRAND NEW LIFE full of joys..!!!

me sitting in front of the comp.
feeling so coldd..
think i'm having some feverrr..
or some stupiidd flu..??
my pathetic cough been goin on for..
more than 2 weeks and it has yet to recoverr..
haiis.. =((

everythings is BLURREDvision.
NOTHING i see now is clear..

yearning for things to bcome BETTER.
i wann PEACE between u, ME, her. him. everyone.
everyone tad exists in this worlddd..
i want to stop tad hatred tad is growingg in me.
i wants to stop it right here.___x
i wants to put an end to everything
tad is not right at the moment..
i wants a BETTER LIFE.
i want to be a HAPPY girl.
i wanns a BRAND NEW* me

hates.
love.
confusion.
blurrED.
''d0ra
#mango92

2006-07-24T23:07:00.000+08:00

here are only some photos taken on sundae.
230706. bishan junction 8.
KELVIN is SO CUTE..!!!
alfred is COOL..

2006-07-23T23:00:00.000+08:00

todae woke up at 10am.
then wash up and had breakfast.
then was suppose to leave hse at 10.30am de.
but then left at 10.45am.
meeting shirley, carmen and rina at tmp control station.
luckily when reach the bus stop.
the bus comee.
but then was 39. took me ard 1hour to reach tmp.
reached theree aroundd 11.15am =X
saw rina not theree.
then walked to shirley and carmen.
then shir says rina cannot go.
mother dont allow..
then we boarded the mrt to city hall to meet peggy.
then to bishan.
went there then eat..
aroundd 12plus bahs..
went to the open plaza.
woahh. alot people sitting there waiting lerhs.
then we also go sit and wait. hhaaas..
waited for around 1hour plus..
hhaaas. we are real crazyy man.
then 2plus. startingg..
gettting damn excitedd.
when they comee out.
scream like hell.. hhaaaa.
tooks pics. take and take and take.
hhaas. tooks alots of pics man. hhaa.
KELIVN SO CUTE with the TWIST..!!!!
HE'S COOL...!!!! hhaaa. i'm seriously DAMN HYPER then.
hhaaas. screaming kelvin like some crazyy plp.
hhaaas.. he seems to rememberr me ehs. =D
got alot pics i took got KELVIN.. hhaaas..!!!
damn addicted to his smile man. hhaaas..
siiao liaos. lols..
the KELVIN keep hiding plp. hhaas.
he's COOL...!!!!!
he's CUTE...!!! *twist*
the soul de alfred. cool also.
andy is cool.
and the malay guy in soul. cool.
others group de okaysokays lahs.
hhaaas. iloveKELVIN..!!!
luckily we near the front.
quite front lahs. coz squeeze and squeeze.
if not arhs.. take pics also no use arhs.
hhaaa.. KELVIN..!!!
when they goin backk..
walk past us..
i capture a real nice pic of KELVIN'S BACK VIEW.!!!
arggghh.. his hair stylo man.. hhaaaa..
took loads of nice nice pics.
gonna develop them out man.
hhaaas..
after everythingg.
went to walk aroundd.
then go take neoprints.
nice lahs. like it.
then walk walk walk walk..
till 5plus bahs.
then actually wanna go home de.
then shirley says wanna go suntec.
then go lorhs.
walkk walkk aroundd 7plus then go homee.
i reached homee aroundd 8plus..
then bathe. didnt had dinner.
cos damn pissed off by father.
he ask me call him.
then i call. scold scold scold.
stupid idiot.
not happy. still let me go.
fins yourself trouble.
got damn fark up man..
hate him
he's turning me rebellious.
fark it man. stpid.
the more i talk abt this.
the moree frk up i got.
so better stop here.
just in case...

loves todae.
a memorable and enjoyable ones.
loves it. xDD
got to see them in real live.
LOVE KELVIN'S SMILEnTWISS..!!!

''d0ra
#mango92

2006-07-22T23:37:00.000+08:00

ic u c ic E R
ic u c ic OFF..

todae had COL combined rehearsal.
siians. and the finale dance so err..?? hhaaas..
after tad me and carmen went kaye's hse.
change. kaye and me had ard 15mins of makeup.
then walked to the bus stop.
take bus then meet xt and the bus.
went to popular too see how small is was.
indeed pathetically small.
last time de better lorhs..
dunno why they want renovate siarhs.
waste of money. and place bcom small..
very very much smaller.
then meet xd at pasir ris mrt control station.
then take mrt to bugis.
in the mrt got this indian guy.
he keeps tryin look at the girl's hp bside herr.
dunno wad he seeing lahs.
cos she hold her hp at u knoee.
hhaas.. then he flash money in front of alot of people.
not 10$$ lehs.. is more then 50$$
dunnoe how manyy 50$$ notes lorhs..
he rich lorhs. but then flash moeny for wad sia.
wann people tp steal arhs.. hhaa. =X
after he kept his money.
he kept looking at me and kaye which is
directly opposite him onlyy..
see him stared then feel kinda disgustedd.
er xin man.. then kaye n i got up of seat.
went to stand at other sidee.
then he still.. then we went furtherr frm where
he's sittingg. hhaaa. =X
then went to the bugis library do researchh.
find sources from library.
okays okays lahs. not badd.
then after tad. ard 6.30 like dat..?
then we went out of library.
me and kaye keep taking photos.. hhhaaas..
photo madness.
walk a few steps take one.. hhaaas.
numerous time when i took.
my hand shiverrs. hhaaas.
then the pic blurr. duno whyy man..
sickeningg.. hhaas..
then actually xd wan to eat de.
but then.. xd went off first. -.-
he got guitar lesson..
so me. kaye. carmen and xt went to eat.
i suggested pasta mania. hhaaa.. =X
then orders haiiwaiian pizza.
and garlic bread..
funny lehs. hhaaa..
the cheesee.. hhaaa.
when xt eat and laugh.
the cheese on her pizza blow off.
then we laugh like some crazyy peoplee.
took video of xt eat and blahh. hhaas.
sure. v. funny. hhaaas..
lols. the table of ours were can say quite dirty lahs.
hhaas. then after eatingg.
went to take mrt home.
got one come. but then.
aiiyah. we want take photo.
reflection marhs.
then never board the train.
waited for the next train. hhaas.
all my GOOD suggestions. hhaas =X
then went to the endd.
erhms. waited for ard 7mins lahs.
kept taking photos of ourself.
hhaaas.. take and take and takee.
hhaaas. cool ehs..
in the mrt also takee. hhaass.
kaye algihted first. at tanah merah..
then carmen. at tampines.
me and xt at white sand.
saw my long time no contact de friend in the mrt.
hhaaas. didnt talkk muchh lahs..
then reached whitesand.
then i went to take bus home lorhs..
reached home around 9bahss..??
yeah. then bathee.
then started on the typing of all the things
me and carmen copied frm the library books.
i 11plus then finish..
arrggghh,, eyes closing lerhs.
plus tomorrow need wale up early..
can see KELVIN tomorrow..!!!!
*ahhhhssss* hhaaas. i'm madd.

Ernest got qualified for the next round.
CONGRATULATIONS...!!!
jia you for the next round yarhs. =D
dont forget to studyy hors. hhaaas.. =X
gambatte ehs. :D

Brandon lost his floorball match.
hrmm. dont sad cheers up.
u all did ur very best lerhs/
a game only. =)
glad tad u are not sadd. hhaaas.
i dunno wad i'm saying =X

okays lahs.
i shall end her for now.
my eyes closing..
i need sleeps..
i need to 'build' up the energyy level.
hhaaa. wad craps is thiss. hhaas.
okays lahs. takee care guys..
GOOD NIGHTS. =)

''dora
#mango92
MANGOaddictor

2006-07-20T22:56:00.000+08:00

i cried.
trying to hold my tears back.
i tried. but i couldnt..
nothing come out frm my mouth.
i didnt smile. until history lesson.
when our history tcherr..
askk us to play a game.
follow herr..
all acts were lamee.
funny too.
okays lahs.
tad was went i smiled.
then lesson start..
went backk to the silence.
lit class kinda boredd.
tcher late for about 15 to 20mins bahs..
then she pass down a paper each row.
asking us to continue one sentence
after our friend had wrote.
reading only wad the previous friends wrote.
but not the others.
i was the last to write.
so i opened the whole thingg.
read it. i was like omgg.
who was the onee tad wrote tadd.
thad *tico* person.. hhaaa..
then i wrote. ''seems that she has jus
killed someone. horrible.'' hhaas.
the thingg ended like this. hhaa.
kinda lamme.
then i went to in front de plp.
who wrote tad..
ezekiel was the onee.. -.-
then the last person was to
suppose to read it to the class.
then was likee. erhhmmss..??
hhaaa. i read and laugh.
then daeng took the paperr.
never read the word laugh also..
hhaaa. cannot make it.
then meiyun.. she says the whole thingg..
hhaa. tad continous writing was crazyy.
lamee too.. hhaaa.
after school. went to write down name.
give mr elmi. for the mt ophir thinggyy.
50$$ hrmm.. quite ex lehs.
after tad.. went to eat..
then went for choirr..
sing sing sing..
after tad ard 5.50pm released.
went backk homee.
6plus.. ate dinner..
then after tad went to studyy.
studyy till fall aslp. hhaa.
then grandma wake me up. lols.
then went to bathee. then went to have
my ez-link card top up.
comee backk. sit a whillee.
then continues my studyy-iing.
until now. jus finished the wholee thingyy.
okok lahs. can understandd..

i begins to think tad..
i meant nothing to him.
i'm invisble to him.
to him.. i'm jus like a transparent glass.
i told one of my friend tad knoes all abt it.
told her i might reconsiderr *smth*
then she say i shouldnt *smths*
cos i treat him good and he treat me like as
if he dunno who am i..
her words does mkes sense lahs.
now i dunno wad to do with the *smths* lerhs.
haiis.. i dunnoe lahs. haiis.
=(( sadded.
saw his sweet smile 2dae.. haiis..

``cries
''d0ra
#mango92

2006-07-18T23:02:00.000+08:00

left out something *interesting*
tad happens in chinese class todaee..
it's about meiyun and zheng hong.
lols. okays. didnt knoe exactly how it start.
roughly lahs.. it's tad meiyun throw paper ball.
wanna throw at dunnoe who then hit till him.
then he not happy..
then i dunno wad happened.
then they started scolding eachh otherr.
then llike kinda fight.
small fight.
meiyun throw her bag at him.
OMGG.. she was so violent todaeee.
but then.. think she so pissed off till like dat..?
okays okays.. hhaaa..
kinda scaryy too.. lols..

we have the same thought.
hmm.. hhaaa.
dunno wad to say.
just knoe tad iloveHIM
but he wont love me.??
anywayyy.. take a look at the next line.
it's new. todae de. xDD
REFRESHED- no more dwelling on the past.
let things be how it was going to be.
i gonna let things be what it whats to be.
but there is a limit to it lahs..
let nature take its course.
iiloveHIM
#mango92

2006-07-18T21:09:00.000+08:00

todae i took to sch de tad 359 bus..
was FREEZING COLD..
cant tahan man.. so damn cold.
plus the thingy which cann blocked the air.
spoilt.. =.=
then bo biann..
toleratee lorhs..
alight from the bus lerhs hors..
still feels so cold..
hhaaa..
todae have assembly.
drama thingyy and quiz..
racial harmony de lahs..
after tad.. had silence readin..
read till wanna slpp..
hhaa. then 8.30 went backk to class.
have lesson.
had englishh. then sciencee.
then recess. after recess..
had lit. forget to bring lit txtbk.
tot will kena scold.
but then hehhs..
didnt. cos got test. 40mins.
kinda difficultt.
cos i didnt studyy.. arghh..
i forget todae got lit test. argghh.
i dunn think i gonna do well for tad.
arrgghhh.. =((
after lit had mt class.
do zuo ye 17 and 18.
i didnt do lahs.
copied yi ling de.
hhaaa. cos i hate chinese lahs.
dunn likee it man..
tads whyy lahs. =X
noe i shouldnt do tad.
but thenn.. aiiyahhsss.
after mt had english lesson
tcherr theree talkingg..
i veri tired.
then rest my head on the tablee.
then i think i fall aslp. hhaa.
at the end of class.
my partnerr use paper hit me.
and i wakeee up.. hhaaas..
siians siianss..
after tad went out of school buy bubble tea.
and shirley go POSB makee her thingg..
after tad went backk school eat.
then went fir cca. choir lahs.
sing and sing and sing..
till aroundd 6 like dat bahs.
choir endd.
went home straight after tad.
saw my uncle's new maid at my hsee.
hrmm. she's friendlyy.. hhaa.
she clean the housee till..
woahhh. clean man..
usually go homee. see le jiu aiiyos.
hhaaa. todae different ehs..
clean mann.. hhaaa.
the window pane which was super dirtyy.
was superr cleann todaee.. hhaaa..
she did a real good job overall.. hhaaa.
tomorrow she coming agaiinn.. =))
okays lahs. shall stop heree.
hardcore study-iing..
my eyes half closedd now. -.-

studystudystudy.
KELVIN shall be my motivation..
to studyy REAL HARD...!!!!!
i wann see his real sweet smile agaiinn..!!!
maybe seeing him this sundaee.
wohoo.. *cheers.*
wann his autograph.. =D
LOVEkelvin.. arrgghhh.. hhaas.
shirley's alfred not bad too. hhaa..

''d0ra
#mango92
MANGOaddictor

2006-07-18T00:14:00.000+08:00

YES.YES.YES..
lucify got in.. *aahhhhsss*
i scream like siiaos when they got in..
*aaahhhhssss* =D
myLOVELY KELVIN.. xDD
*aaaahhhhsss*
gonna go congrats him. =)
heeehhss**
ii wanna see his smile againn.
his sweet sweet smilee.
ahhhs*hearts melts. =)

SOUL.J3 and mi lu bing got in too.
congrats man.. =))

myKELVIN.. *ahhhhsss*
hhaaas..
iiSERIOUSLYgoneMAD...

gonna be DAMN HYPER tomorrow..!!!
school tomorrow gonna be CRAZY..

kelvin <3
#mango92
0.20am =))

2006-07-17T22:57:00.000+08:00

school's kinda boringg.
school Bagg heavyy like as if
there're BIG BIG stones in it.. hhaaas..
wait for kayee for half an hourr. =/
ardd 5.45pm..
went up my hse.
started brain-storming
on wad to create.? poem or songg.
try songg. kinda strangee.
difficult also.
so we tried out poem.
we listed every thing.
then rephrase it.
make it into a poem.
kinda funiiee.. hhaaa.
but then it's kinda successful lahs.
cheers to the creation of tad poem. hhaaas.
if were to present tml to whole class arhs.
erhmms.. sure very paiisae de..
hhaaa.
then around 7.30pm
then she leavee.
her father comee fetch herr..
accompany her downstairs.
then went up.
had dinnerr.
was starvinggg.. didnt had lunchh.
haaas. then eat abit.
went to bathee.
then comee out. jus nice.
superband jus start..
watch while eat the rest of my food.
hhaaa. i'm a strangee plp. hhaa.
okays. KELVIN..!!!! *ahhhhhsss*
i'm kinda CRAZYY OVER HIS SWEET SMILE.
hhaaaa. KELVIN GOGOGO..!!!
KELVIN..!!! *aaahhhhhsss**
vics. jon. kuek.[cutee*] they rocks too.
zhi wei roxs lesser lahs. =X
kelvin roxs MOREE..!!!!
i'm mad abt KELVIN'S SMILE..!!!
SO SWEET.. hhaaas.
laterr gonna watch the results..
kinda excitingg.
cos all groups are greatt.
dunnoe who will be outt. arghhsss.
i dunn wann lucify out.
cos wanna see kelvin on stagee againn..
argghh. kelvin.. hhaaaa..
there's 5 groups.
J3. lucify. soul. brods. mi lu bing
one gonna out todaee.
whowhowho..!!!!!
later will knoe.
okays lahs.
gonna continue my..
hardcore study-iing ** =))

i think tad..
he is giving hints to me.
to gives up on him..
i dunnoe whyy i'm thining this wayy also.
haiis.. no matter how he treats me.
i will treat him good..
until onee day.
the day no one might knoes..
we might bcome
shi jie shang zui shu xi de mo shen ren..
SARANG HEYO..

''d0ra
#mango92
MANGOaddictor

i had my goals set lerhs.
myDREAMcourse in 2yrs time.
SPORTandWELLNESS
i gonna work HARD for it.
also had a dream of bcoming
a CAMP INSTRUCTOR.
gonna learn PIANOandDRUM.
multi talents it should be. =X
u may think tad.
i'm thinking too far.
but then..
in a blink of an eyes..
times passess jus like dat..
so set ur goals now.
knoe wad u want.
then work hard to achieve it..!! xDD
i'm talking as if i'm so *clever* ahemm.
hhaaaass. =))

2006-07-16T22:59:00.000+08:00

woke up at around 12plus todae.
did nothing muchh.
onlinee right after i wash up..
chat with friends..
7plus. had mouthful of dinnerr.
no appetite lahs. =(
dunnoe why also.
then 8 plus bathee..
9plus.. hmwrk-iing.
after hmwrkiing.
heree to blogg..

boring day.
i'm simply crazyy over
KELVIN'S REAL SWEET SMILE..!!!
arghhh.. hhaaas.
okays. shall end heree for todae.

iiloveHIM
iimissesHIM

the more i look at him..
the more i feel like cryiing.
cos i knew tad the dae we can be togetherr,,
WONT COME..
it's just a wishy thinkyy part of minee.
it wont comee true..
but. i'm still waiting for tad dae.

becos of him..
i hurt anotherr him
i cant love another him
my heart just cant open to the another him

to another him.
i'm seriously so sorry.
dont wait. not worth it.
seriously... i'm SORRY.

''d0ra
#mango92
MANGOaddictor

2006-07-16T00:16:00.000+08:00

*hearts melts*
iiLOVEtodae..
i'm crazyy about kelvin's smile.
the real sweet smile...
arggghh.. i wanna see his smile againn..!!!
he COOL... xDD
love it man. =)
a memorable day. cool =D

but then..
iloveHIM more.. =)
boy, SARANG HEYO.

#mango92

2006-07-15T23:25:00.000+08:00

todae wake up at 7.30am.
was suppose to wake up at 7am de.
but then overslept lahs.
luckily not 8am arhs. hhaaa.
then wash up. changeee.
then aroundd 8plus. went to take bus.
to ken's housee.
then call him. he never answerr.
think he still sleeping bahs.
reached ken's hse at around 8.55am bahs.
then 9am ken's father drove us to tuition.
reached theree around 9.30am.
learned new thingg.
dunnoe wad it is.
ard 10plus bahs. got this guy came.
erhms. quite okays lahs. not bad.
but i'm not interested. hhaaa. =)
then went off at ard 11 plus.
took mrt to tampines.
went arcade. they played..
then went to eat.
eat at pasta mania.
mine cost $8 arrgghh.
so expensive. haiis.. =(
while eating saw got banner outside.
at the open plaza.saying tad.
there will be singapore idol road show.
4pm. hmm.. kinda interested in tad.. hhaaa.
wanna see how they look like in real life.
after eating went to the open plaza.
sit sit. then go toyR'us see see.
then received shirley's and carmen's message le.
they reached the small mac lerhs.
i told them i need to leave to meet them.
then the kenneth wanna follow.
then i jus walk. never care abt them.
went saw shirley and carmen lerhs..
i turned behind and see if they were stil following me.
but then saw no one.
they follow till dunnoe wheree.
hhaaa. then ken call me.
then saw them at the traffic light.. hhaaa.
then went KFC. see if got seat theree.
then we do theree.
but the KFC was full of people..
then thought of goin library.
bfore tad. went to POSB.
cos shirley wanna make new card or wadd.
then i push the door. cannot open de.
strangee. then carmen says close le lahs.
then i look inside on my right.
i saw the sign saying closed. -.-
i didnt see. argghh. paiisae siarhs.
then went to make the ez-link cardd..
walking down the stairs.
saw yushan in mac uni.
walking up.. she goin workk.
i wonder how she cope with her studies siarhs.
study while workingg..
hrmm. then walk to the library.
went up the 2nd floor.
the table full of people..
no place for us..
so we went 1st floor.
young reader section theree.
then sit on the floor. hhaa.
then started doing our history proposal..
do do do. then talk talk talkk.
talk about the girls' fight tad onee.
talk abt the mational dae song.
my island home. and still got others.
then finish lerhs.
went to the computer theree search for books.
then copied down the code numberr and
went up the 2nd floor to search for the book.
shirley borrowed 2 books..
then walked backk to tampines mall.
at century square theree.
cann hear screamings and all..
then went 3rd floor. saw kelvin there.
the lucify member. actually wanna take his autograph de.
but then paiisae. then we go up the open plaza watch the
singapore idol roadshow first. so many people lorhs.
saw some of our schmate thereee. sec 2 de..
the 11 singapore idol finalist.. theyy threw a bag eachh.
with their signature on it. woahh. worth it.
but then a pity. they didnt throw the bag to behind.
the purple wann nicee. very nicee. i wann..!!!
then the autograph session. only those with the bag.
posters or their magazine then cann take their autograph..
we got nothing. so we went off.
went to yamaha. go see kelvin.
wanna take his autograph.
see outside. he's not in theree lehs.
then we went in.. see see..
see piano blahblahh.
went we wanna go out.
tad time.. kelvin walk past us.
RIGHT IN FRONT OF US.
we jus stood theree.
err. too shocked lerhs. hhaaa.
then went out..
didnt get his autograph.
paisae lehs. ask for autograph. empty handed.
then never askk lorhs.
went mini toons.
then go popular. i bought stuffs.
then wanna go KFC eat marhs.
then walk past yamaha. go take lift.
at the end. when wanna open the door.
to the lift theree. i looked inside yamaha.
saw kelvin. serving customer.
then i smile and wave to him.
he smile backk.. =)
then go inside the door.
go press for lift. realised. lift spoilt. -.-
then walked out of the door again..
then peek inside the glass window.
saw kelvin agaiin. smile and wave to him again =))
he smile backk. hhaa.
then after tad. shirley says take stair lahs.
okays lorhs. walked to the door again.
see him again.. ahhh...=DD
i smiled and wave to him AGAIN.
he gave me a REAL SWEET SMILE. and wave back.
so SWEET of him.. xDD argghh. my heart skipped a beat.
hhaaa. melted lahs. hhaaaa.
he's kinda cool. quite handsome lahs.
wohoo.. WONDERFUL DAE. xDD
memorable day also.. hhaaa.
then went KFC eat.
after tad went to century square.
there we went stanley and his friends.
went to 'montique'[dunnoe how to spell.] hhaas.
then the hairband ex lahs.
plus i no money lerhs.
left $3plus onlyy. =((
then went to metro.
see surfer's paradise shirt, shorts and pants.
nice nice clothes. i wannn..!! but i'm so darn broke..
hrmm. nevermindd. then went to exclusively hers'
bought two hairbands theree.
one sky blue. one light pink. for $3.40
then go toilet. made hair.
had my new hairbands on..
okays lahs. not badd..
then went one shop at interchange there de.
forgot wad lerhs. look at cosmetic thingyy.
then my grandma call. ask me earlier go home.
actually wann go this fashion de.
but then forgot abt it lahs.
then went homee.
i went crazyy. i had some thick make up.
it looks erhmm.. okayokays lahs. hhaa.
maybe it will be better with blusher. hhaaas..
it my dunnoe how many times try out lerhs. hhaa.
after bathing. watched tv. watched till ard 9 plus. bahs??
then come online chat chat chat..
then remember havent blogg. -.-
and so i'm heree blogging.
hrm.. it's 12.10am lerhs.
my sister is still not backk from the nation stadium.
she went there for mational dae preview.
so good lorhs. i wann go see... hhaaa.
okays lahs. my eyes are closing lerhs.
i'm so sleepy.. =.=
shall end heree lerhs bahs..

missesHIMloads.
loveHIM =)
''d0ra
#mango92
MANGOaddictor.

2006-07-14T21:02:00.000+08:00

todae went school hall for morning assembly.
follow by the vice principle talk.
kinda boringg. falling aslp..
after tad had english lesson.
taken by ms wani.
had this conjuction BINGO gamee.
hhaaa. okayokays lahs.
abit fun bahs..?
we were the 7th to BINGO.
cos the word we want..
i being read out at the 17th of 20.
argghhh. hhaaa.
then had pe lesson.
went to take height and weight.
after tad were told to run 8 rounds..
around the parade square..
after tcher came. we stop.
then sit down in our groups.
then we told to pair up.
then pass the ball to each other.. and stop it.
started to drizzle went mrkoh gave instruction.
the drizzle got heavier and heavier..
then mr koh let us to get up and starting passing the ball.
stop the ball.. had so much fun under the rain.
the rain got so heavy tad mr koh had to stop the game.
then we throw/ hit or wadever
the ball back to the place where it was..
then when goin to put back the hockey thingyy..
i went under the rain. =)
then go hit the ball back to the basket theree.
fun. was drench till erhms..
so damn wait.
then after dat went to toilet..
actually wanna change de. but then too wet lahs.
they we decide to change after recess..
yeahh. then like dat lorhs.
after recess. went to change and went back to class.
had CharacterDevelopment lesson.
talk about BGR.
why teens go steady.
when do we go steady..
this lesson was errr? -.^ hhaaa..
is like tad de lahs.. hhaaa.
then had chemistry lesson. in classrm.
hrmm. half way through. i think i fall aslp.
hhaa. too tired. plus too boring lerhs.
then tcher teach so slow lorhs.
i wake up cos of the vibration of handphone
tad shook the tablee. send me a scare. -.-
wake up. dunno wad tcher talkin abt.
then see see. listen abit..
then orhs. understandd lerhs.. hhaaa.
luckily i understand. if not arhs.. hhaaa.
then 12.30 dismiss.. then walk out.
saw shirley and rina in front of us.
then walk faster.
when went down the stairs..
they went missing lerhs. -.-
dunno wheree they dissapear to..
hrmm.. then after tad. me and kayee.
walkked so fast. cos she acc me to catch up with him.
then xt and carmen. behind.strolling.
is like we cross the traffic lights lerhs..
they still havent cross.
then his bus come lerhs lorhs.
then ran..
knoe cant take same bus lerhs.
so yeahh. me and kaye walk like some snail.
if not for the two of them.
could have gotten up the same bus lerhs lorhs.
all because of them. NEVERMIND.
then i think xt went home.??
we took bus 21 to tamp mrt station.
then took mrt to bugis.
when reached theree. was like.
no difference frm weekend.
so many people.
but mostly bahs, is adult lahs.
not so much of teens..
then went to bugis street first..
see the bag.
the first shop we went in.
there's none tad attracts me..
then went in the secondd de.
the shop was erhms.. can say quite big lahs.
then got one tad attracts me. =)
i wants it. was the last one.
so erhms. okays lahs. take lorhs.
since i like it so muchh.. hhaa.
actually is $43 de.
so gave me $40.
cos the bag a bit dirty..
after buying of bagg.
went BROKE. only $5 left in my wallet.
pathetic.. argghh.. then went to have KFC.
after tad i put my sling bag into my backpack..
walked on to the adidas shop.
see shirt. hrrmm...
seriously forgotten which one he wans.
saw 2. maybe will buy eitherr.
then went to newbie. saw tad shirt.
so attractive.
might reconsider buying 2 newbie shirt.
then one adidas shirt..
2 newbie shirt = 1 adidas shirt.
dunnoe which one lahs. argghh.
then went to the shop bus stop.
the dress so nice.. i wants..!!!
hhha. but then i'm so broke.
how am i goin to buyy..?? hhaaaa.
then went out of the edge.
then saw benjamin.
rina's cousin. thought he wont recognise me.
but he did. smile at each other..
then he ask where rina.
says she never come lorhs.
then after tad called rina to tell her.
hhaaas.. then went to erhms. the wallet shop.
saw tad BILLABONG WALLET. i wants.!!!!
argghh. no money =(
then got this guy..
when walking out of the shop.
the alarm sounded.
but then he didnt had any items unpaid with him
then i think the sales girl went in the storee.
to see the surville camera bahs.
then think she sees nothing of him taking anything.
so he was let off.. hrmm. interestingg. =X hhaaa..
we were so silly to walk a big round to go up the escalator.
hhaa. cos we talkin too much abt why tad guy was let off.
then went into the nike shop. then seiyu.
see here see thereee.
getting bored.. then 4pm bahs.
went to take mrt.
one alight at tenah merah.
then the other tampines.
and me. pasir ris. hhaaa.
when walkin to the bus line up theree..
just nice bus comee. then board lorhs.
reached home at 4.45pm.
then on tv watch the repeat show.
ended at 5.20pm
then waited to watch he lan chun.
but then i fall aslp. hhaa.
till around 6plus then wake up.
lol. so tired lorhs.. argghh.
7plus bathe. then online.
8pm. watch television programme.
channel 55, scv de..
show ended ard 8.45.
and i'm heree bloggingg.
blogged for more than an hour lerhs. hhaa.
okayokays.

jus now when i wanna call shirley..
grandpa says his heart pain..
i was gin to breakdown tad moment.
but i hold back my tears.
whenever he says he feels the pain of his heart..
my imagination would just run wild.
not jus wild. but REAL WILD.
thought of wad we goin do without him.
how was it like.
who gonna wake us up during weekdays.
to go to school..
who gonna save us frm getting scoldings frm fatherr.
who gonna do the marketing. buying of foods..
we once ask him to go for the opeartion
tad he hadent gone for years. since the last he went.
to clear his blood vessel?? prevent frm being clogged up.??
but then he refuses.. haiis. ='(
i just broke down when typing this thingyy. haiis.

tomorrow had to wake up early.
need to reach ken's hse at 8.45am
then his father fetch us to tuition.
it's very early.
haiis. think i'm gonna oversleep..??
hopefully wont lahs.
tuiton frm i think 9 yo 11.??
then after tad around 1plus bahs.
meeting shirley and carmen.
do the history project..
the daeng hors..
call his hphone cannot de.
either engaged. rejected or wadd.. -.-
then we goin to do without him lorhs..
okaysokays.. i'm gonna end heree.
iiloveHIM
sarang heyo.
''d0ra
#mango92
MANGOaddictor

2006-07-13T21:20:00.000+08:00

hrrmm.. todae took bus to school.
sat in the bus for erhms 30mins.
was freezing coldd.. hhaa.
sitting under the aircon.
the thinggy cant turn to stop cold air
from coming out cos spoiled lerhs..
reached school around 7plus..
after morning assembly.
went back to class for reading.
then went for music lesson.
after tad was maths lesson.
walk quite fast backk.
when saw mrs khoo wann enter classrm..
we ran and went in the classrm.
luckily make it in time.
if not she will say us again.
for being late for 10mins. hhaa.
after tad recess.
then science lesson.
but then ms phua never come todae.
relive tcher come in.
gave us worksheet do.
hrmm. at first dunno how to do de.
cos ms phua havent teach yet.
then look at the periodic table
and observe.. ahh. knoe how to do lerhs.
very easyy bahs..?
heehhs. i'm cleverr =X
hhaaa. thick skin.. hhaaa.
alfights. then hand in.
then help people so some historyy thingyy.
and one of the science worksheet..
after tad was. erhms.. history lesson.
okays. had some presentation thingyy going on.
then at first daeng present..
i went to two groups listen to their presentation.
then was erhms.. okays..
then i decided to went backk to present.
so i went backk.
tcher alreadyy theree giving marks. hmm..
then after tcher went off i took over the presentaion.
at the end of it.. tcher anounce the highest winner.
hrmm.. was ernest group.. they got 18.
then mazni. got 17
carmen.
then found out laterr.
tcher mistaken carmen as angel -.-
not our group win. is angel.
i wonder why man.
the presentation was erhmms. okays.?
the drawing okayokayy lah.
hrmm. maybe cos daeng jokee jokee
and wasnt presenting seriously lahs..
hrmm. forget about it. =(
hrmm. then got project to do.
we left with no choice but to take the topic we dunn like.
or we dunn really knoe lahs..
the dunno wad communist.
hrmm.. sadd man. =(
if time could be turn back.
i would have stay there present.. =/
NEVERMINDDD..

i gonna work EXTRA HARD.
i'm trying to get A for some subjects..
i not gonna let my mother down.
i need to prove to my father tad i can do it.
i'm not the one tad always computer..
never do work. get atrocious results..
i wanna prove tad i'm capable of good results.
i gonna push myself hardd..

lollipops. =))
wonder wad tad brandon told rina todaee. =/
nevermindd. xDD

EASE. finally. xDD
been in the ''torture'' for ard a week..?
been worrying like hell.
at least now. i can dont worry so much lerhs..

iiloveHIM
''d0ra
#mango92
MANGO addictor

i never really knew you
you were just another friend
but when i got to know you,
i let my heart unbend.
i couldn't help past memories
that would only make me cry
i had to forget my first love
and give love another try
so i've fallen in love with you
and i'll never let you go
i love you more than anyone
i just had to let you know
and if you ever wonder why
i dont know what i'll say
but i'll never stop loving you
each and everyday
my feelings for you will never change
just know my feelings are true
just remember one thing
sarang heyo [i love you]

boy, iiloveYOU

2006-07-12T20:08:00.000+08:00

didnt blogg yesterdae cos..
was really very busyy. but then 11plus free lerhs.
dunn feel like blogging cos of something tad happens.
haiis..
11/07/06 a sad dae i can say.

12/07/2006
todae maths lesson was boring.
bfore goin in chinese class.
ask brandon do me a favour.
thanks loads brandon.. =)
chinese lesson. didnt listen.
cos i kinda hate chinese. =X
was sitting there reading history txtbk..
then science. okok lahs.
learn new topic todae. atoms.
after tad home econ class.
bake the dunno wad banana cream or wadeverr.
eeekk.. no nice de.
eat le wanna puke. hhaaa.
i go home throw awayy. lol.
during the home econ.. cooking time..
qiao yi and khairul erhhss.. do wrongg.
then i was shuo mang jiao luan lorhs.
i boiling the banana thinggyy then they put butter on the pan.
didnt spread it then pour the creamyy thingyy.
then was likee argghhhhh... then i quickly take the pan.
then spread the thingyy.. the first one wasnt successful.
then i make the second one. simply PREFECTLY BEAUTIFUL.
hhaaa. then the third one. not enough the creamy thing le.
then the shape not very nice. but is succesful.
argghh.. then after all tad. i give each of us onee..
then gave khairul the one not enough creamyy de.
then qiao yi the PREFECTLY BEAUTIFUL de.
actually i thought of taking tad de.
cos i do de marhs. my FIRST SUCCESSFUL ATTEMPT.
but then thinkk.. later gave her. she and kahirul make de.
she will say me wadd wadd wadd..
then i never take the PREFECTLY BEAUTIFUL de.
i took THEY cook de. the unsuccessful de.
the not really cooked de.
haiis.. sad =(
i thought of asking ms juliana tad i wanna change partners.
i dunn wann work with them.
make me not happy.
i dunnoe she will let me changee not..
i okays with anyone in tad home econ class but NOT them.
after tad. had history class.
excited man. to knoe the test 2 de results. hhaaa.
tcher come in. a while laterr.
people eating the food we make in home econ class.
hhaaa.. tcher let us eat.. hhaa. good ehs.
but i didnt eat lahs. lols.
then she gave us majiong paper.
4 person per group.
my group got shirley. carmen and daeng.
then ask us draw pictures.
during the japanese occupation.
okays.. then use txtbk as reference.
when about to start drawing. tcher call me.
i thought wadd. is ask me take file and my test paper lahs..
hhaaa. the got backk my paperr. got 28.
okays lahs. not bad lahs.
naqqil got full marks siarhs. wl.
wonder wad he write siarhs.. =/
after tad i started drawing lorhs.. okays lahs. not badd.
then daeng keep adding -.-'' de words. hhaaa.
he draw de also quite funny.
had fun.. =)
i think we are the first group to finish drawing.
then we paste on the wall. hhaaa.
after school lerhs. some groups havent finish.
then tcher says those who wann leave can leave lerhs.
i never leave lahs.
waited for kayee. thought she goin home after tad marhs.
then i ask her later where u goin.
then tad xue ting dunn wann let me knoe.
nevermind lorhs. big deal mehs..?
dunn let me know dunn let lorhs.
as if u are goin somewheere secretive..
okays. nevermindd.
then jus nice mazni they all leaving.
then i go with them lorhs.
then says goodbyes to him.
fun to be with nad theyy all.
cos they are full of laughters..
but then too bad they staying backk lahs.
i go out of school alone lorhs.
then i call carmen ask where they goin.
her hp like no reception like dat.
call two time also cannot hear wad she says man.
was kind pissed off by tad.
i never call again. and i went home.
ate bisuits and watched tv programme.
then aunt comee. buy desserts eat.
nicee. watch tv programe till around 4..?
after the show finish lerhs.
go batheee. thenn....
listen song. while studying history.
tads was how i fall aslp.
then i wake up at ard 5plus.
then 5,.watch he lan chun. channel 8 de.
watch till wanna slp. so damn tired lorhs.
tads whyy lahs.. then 6plus go take my dinner.
then eat while watchingg..
the show finish le stil havent finish eating..
hhaaas. after eating. on comp.
find pictures and print.
for the music cover page.
and here i'm bloggingg lorhs..
hrmms.. okays lahs.
i needa chiong my history and strybook lerhs.

iloveHIM.
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MANGOaddictor

2006-07-10T21:13:00.000+08:00

yesterdae slept at 12am.
was suppose to wake up at 2am to watch soccer de.
but then sleep sleep sleep.
sleep till 3am then suddenly wake up.
was raining thenn..
lols. then went to the living room watch soccer lorhs.
woahh. at the extra time ..
the france guy. zidane use his head hit the italy guy chest..
aiiyos.. then kena red card.. hhaaa.
okays. after the half an hour extra time.. still draw..
luckily arhs. the goal post says NO to france de goal man.
if not arhs. they won liaos.. hhaaaa.
they miss lots of goals.. hhaaa. =X
they played quite good lahs.
then after tad got penalty..
get five goals and u will win.
italy got 5 goals.. wohoo.. =)
then france got 4goals. one never got in.
luckily man.. hhaaas..
ITALY WON WORLD CUP. see told u liaos..
hehs. i won the bet. xDD
the whole thinggyy.. finish at ard 5am..?? think earlier than 5am.
then i headed backk to my cosy bed.
sms till ard 5plus..
then fell aslp straight awayy.
then slp not till half an hour..
kena wake up liaos.. need prepare go school lerhs.
woahh. so damn tired sehs..
but bo bian. wake up..
slowly slowly wash up and all..
then 6.30 plus then go out of housee.
to takee bus to school lorhs..
6.35 bus was damn packedd.
should take 6.25 bus next time.
but then.. too early lerhs lahs.. hhaas.
okays. went in the sch gate colin they all theree.
then smile say hi.
first timee. hhaaa. okays..
then walk past the art room.
saw the 2e4 guy walking then ssay hi.
hhaaa. hi here hi theree. =))
walk to the foyer tad time.. things seems blurry.. hhaa.
then walk past xm theyy all. then smile.
i seems to be in the best mood todae ehs.
smile to everyonee. hhaaa.
walk to classroom with kaye and friends..
then told her wanna blanja they all drinks during reccess.
then went classroom. and took out national anthem.
pledge and school song outside classrm.
then went in class read newspaper for ard 30mins.
read till.. =.= hhaaa..
after mschua went out of class..
the room bcome so noisy.. hhaa
talk abt soccer thinggyy..
i think 3 of my friend lost their bet. hhaaa.
one of them put a bet of $5o on france.
and theyy lost.. lol..
was ard 8.15 then one of my friend shouted.
teacherr comingg..
then all of us ran back to our seats. hhaaa.
acted we were so quiet waiting for her. hhaaa.
then she started lessons..
construct triangles.. kinda boringg.
then gave hmwrkk..
finally 1hour over lerhs. lesson over.
next is history lesson.
was kinda excited abt it.
cos wanna knoe the marks for the first test marhs.
but then who knoes she came in.
give out another test.
asking us to do the test on the spot..
surprise test. didnt tell us in advance. hhaaa..
okays lahs. not bad. kinda easy..?
cos ytd i got studyy. xDD
for the last question tad need to be written on the foolscap paper
providedd.. i wrote erhms. one full page and a setence. lol.
after tad pass up the paperr. after all pass up lerhs.
she told us the top scorers for the previous test.
naqqil and zakkiyah, they got 20/20. clever hors.
then was kinda shocked when she says i came in next.
19/20. didnt expect it.. hehhs.
then like dat lorhs..
after tad.. have a small quiz.
if tad person never go up give the wrongg.
we would have gotten the same as group 4 lerhs.
but nevermind lahs. it's a quiz. let her learn her mistakes.
nothing else matters as long as we learn smth..
after tad went for home ecom lesson.
i didnt have a partner. early knoes.
tad wed i shouldnt have be on mc. =(
then tcher put me with qiao yi and khairul.
i not happy lahs.
i dunn wanns. i wanna changeee..!!!!
okays. nevermind. todae learn abt vitamins..
then after tad reccess liaos..
when walkin to buy drinks..
saw on the floor got nuggets and hotdogs. omg.
waste man. the food drop on the floor like dat.
$2pluss gonee.. wastee.. hhaaa.
went to buy my drinks. then sit there drinks.
then thought. ehs. where's kaye. told her wanna blanja.
but then dunnow where she gone.
then rina shirley they all bought their food lerhs.
nevermind then. tml then blanja them =lorhs.
then after tad had mt lesson.
do the bao zhang du hao gan.
write not very long.
then pass up went out of of class. =))
then lesson overr. went for art lesson.
draw the spoon. erhms.. difficult.
i draw ugly sehs. not nicee.
then class over. go separate ways.
i went alone to the stuff room find ms juliana.
she say wanns see me.
cos wanna explain about the HE project as
last week de lesson i absent marhs..
then waited for her. then copy some important things.
then explain.. then aroundd 2plus then finish.
then sms carmen. ask where were they..
for the presentation thingyy..
she never reply me. then i go home lorhs.
went buy lunch. then reached home around 2.30pm?
not suree wad time. then eat..
sit on the sofa. play songs then sit there sing lorhs.
hhaaa. nothing better to do marhs. lol.
i think around 3plus.. fell aslp on the sofa.
slp till 6.15 then wakee up.
woahh. shiokk. was damn tiredd.
ytd slpt abt 2 n a half hour only.
had dinner. bathee.
then watch superband..
online chat chat chat. and i'm here bloggingg.
blogged for so longg lerhs. hhaas..
ok lahs. shall stop bloggin heree.
tad lazyyboy. iloveHIM =)
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MANGOaddictor

2006-07-09T21:57:00.000+08:00

woke up with no voice todae =((
cant talk.. stupiidd =X
breakfast. a piece of bread.
lunch. 3 hotdogs.
dinner. 2 piece of curry chicken.
wad a lost of appetitie for todae..
hrmm. voice coming backk for now lerhs..
*phew*
okoks.. did english hmwrk todae.
then now gonna chiong history lerhs.
then laterr might be watching wrold cup.
france vs. italy.
i support ITALY man.!!!
I WOULD DEFINITELY WIN LAHS.
dunnid say de =D
my friend place a bet without telling me.
stupidd =X no lahs. just kiddingg..
ITALY GONNA WIN. xDD

think tml alot plp gonna be late for sch.
also might have alot people slpin in class bahs.
hhhaaa. due to watching soccer at midnight. hhaa.
i hope i wont be one of them.
although i will be watchin lahs. =X
but sure will be half dead.

okays lahs.
i shall stop heree.

iiloveHIM
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#mango92
MANGOaddictor

08july06

2006-07-09T00:14:00.000+08:00

080706

did nothing much todae.
morning wake up at 9plus.
then 10 watch superband.
then 11plus.. on comp..
listen to song..
till now. =X

at night..
read strybk.
read more than half a book in a night.
POWER ARHS. hhhaa.
now gonna slp after this blogging le.
was damn tired afterr havin my eyes on the
strybooks for hours..

i just felt tad
myHOPE. myDREAMS. myWISHES will be shattered.
jus a matter of SOONERorLATER
dunnoe why i'm thinkin this..
well shall end heree.

iiloveHIM
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#mango92
MANGOaddictor

2006-07-07T21:13:00.000+08:00

todae had spot check for girls only.
not fair ehs.. luckily i never kena caught.. =))
then around 9plus.. had the emergency exercise.
the emergency was to stay at classroom.
close all windows and doors. then seal them up.
was so DAMN HOT in the room.
gave tissue to him and friend.
then nothing to do.
then sit there sing a few sentence then bored le.
then they talked ghost stories.
not really tad freaky larhs. lol.
then started to lose interest in listening.
so when lie down on the floor lorhs.
alot people was lying on the floor.. hhaaa..
then when i goiing to fall aslp..
teacherr talk talk talkk.
then finish le. i close my eyes.
once again when i wanna get into slp.
got annoucement throught the PA system..
then woke up. they say wanna clearr everything in the room.
make sure the arrangement of chair and tables..
are in the same order as this morning..
after all tad.. can go reccess lerhs.
then change out our pe shirt.
ms chua ask us to de.
ok lorhs. change lorhs.. then after tad.
went to buy drinks.
he treat.. THANKYOU, BOY. =))
then after tad tcher ask us go parade square..
the sun was so strongg..
then saw some of my friends still wearin pe shirt.
then i ask. thought ms chua jus now say mus change?
she said. she ask her. she say ok.
then was like errr.. why tcher like dat.
nevermind. forget it. small matter nia.
then went up to the hall after upper sec left..
the tcher started briefing..
why we did this todae and blahblahblahh..
after all tad.. 12pm lerhs.
he ask all the lower sec in the hall to stand.
then say we can go. then all rushed out of the hall.
then went to central,the 7 eleven there
de bus stop to wait for bus21.
waited for quite longg.. then after bus finally came.
then board the bus lorhs.
when the bus stop at the traffic light theree.
i happen to look out of the window.
then saw tad swimming coach walking..
then the next stop.
brandon and ernest came up..
then they alighted together at brandon's stop..
shirley. carmen. peggy. kaye and me.
went to tampines..
went to have lunch first...
then go around walk walk walk lorhs.
go here go theree. lol.
then at ard 3plus. they wann go home lerhs.
ok lorhs. then went separate ways. go homee..
carmen took same bus as me. heehhs.
after she alight.. i starting to wanna fall aslp.
then close eyes.. then open then close. hhaaa.
nearly miss my stop siarhs. =X
too tired lah. tads whyy lorhs..
then came home. bathee.
didnt had dinner.
no appetite. dunno whyy.
then like dat lorhs.
watched tv. and here i'm to updatee..
going slp after this lerhs bahs..
cos was really tired..
haiis.. was kinda troubled too.
didnt knoe who to talk to.
so i kept it to myself. and prayed..
was feeling much better after tad.

if u were ask to choose..
which one will you choose..?
adidas. new balance or nike..?
i thought of new balance. cos the shirt quite nice.
then thought of adidas next.
maybe it's the adidas shirt tad i wann to buy.?
alot people gave me their preference.. adidas.
see la. which one nicer then buy lorhs..
tell me which one u prefer.
either through msn or through this tagboard of mine.

oklahs.. i shall end heree..
btw. u people.. dunn call me hors..
cos i diverted all my calls to home =))
if wann only can msg me. or wad la..

iiloveHIM
smiles =))

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MANGOaddictor

2006-07-06T22:53:00.000+08:00

todae okok la..
had history test todae.. wrote alot.
but not sure if it's all relevent?? hhaaa.
think it is. hhaaa. hopefully i will pass ehs.
hrmms. after the test.. got a quiz game..
then the group with the highest score will get
to knoe clues for the next test. good hors..
my group got the highest scoree.. wohoo.. =))
after those fun and noise.

lesson over. lit lesson next.
everyone like so dead. so quiet. no life.

after sch actually wanna talk to him de.
but then tad stupid ms banu ask me smth.
ask me abt the strybk i holdingg.. argghh..
hate her to the core.. argghh.. =X
okok.. lols.. then tell her abt it lorhs..
then she ask me if i'm eating sweets in class..
erhms.. hhaa. of course say no la. lol.
but i did eat. =X but SERIUOSLY..
her lesson so damn boring..
then hungry also marhs.. then eat the sweet lorhs.
she arhs. only knoe how to waste time talking herCRAPS..
people wann her start lesson. she still there talking dunno wad.
lols.. then were there laughing all the wayy. hhaaa..
half an hour left before goin after sch lerhs.
then she seriously start lesson..
then a few more minutes before after sch.
my partner made my laugh like crazyy. lol.
there's this sentence in the lit drama script.
'' mama used to wear gloves '' then he read out very loud.
'' mama used to wear gloves, papa used to wear socks''
the moment i heard it. was laughing like crazyy..? lols.
laugh till a few drops of tears drop.? hhaa

after school..
went out to have lunch bfore goin cca.
genie came with mr tan todae.
kinda surprise she would come. hhaa..
she cut her hair..
then we sing sing sing.
then at ard 3.30 bahs.
went to comp lab.
to meet mrs khoo.
for the presentation thingyy..
then ard 5plus then go backk for choir..
sing sing singg..
then mr tan show us the genie sing de song de mv.
xin yuan de mv. kinda touching..
then after tad. genie sing her song, xin yuan for us.
wohoo.. nicee.. wonderful.. live de ehs.. lol..
then after all tad.. ms vicky and another tcher came in.
then ms chua ask u to sing leaving on a jet plane one more time.
then everybody was like huhh..
then sing lorhs.. after the singing..
went to get genie's signature.
i got two.. heehhs.. =))
after tad go home lorhs..

reached home 6,30 plus bahs..?
then 7plus mother call..
ask me acc her go tmp buy hp.
ok lorhs. then meet her at whitesand mrt platform.
then go tmp starhub there buy lorhs..
the hp was simple woahh..
got good function..
got bluetooth. got camera. got mp3
it's only at $38 lorhs. so damn cheap.
i wann.. !!!! arggghhh.. envy.. =/
then went around walk walk..
then reached home at ard 9.30 plus bahs..
then bathe lorhs.
then here i'm blogging lorhs.
my eyes were half close lerhs..
wanna sleep liaos la.
hrmm.. tomorrow sch till 12noon only. yeahh=))
cann go out.. think gonna go tmp with shir they all..??
think so bahs.. not very sure yet..
ok la. i shall stop heree..
wanna slp liaos la.. hhaaa.

iloveHIM
imissesTALKINGtoHIM
addiction._x

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#mango92
MANGOaddictor

2006-07-05T17:42:00.000+08:00

heyheyheys...
i'm back.. =))
okoks.. sch starts about one weeks le.?
the second week gonna end soon..
things arent going smoothly..
haiis. dunnoe wad and how to say la.
i wanna get these things out of my back..
family problems arise.. haiis..
things were hide frm me.
i didnt knoe till my mother told me.
tad night i cried..
so sad about it.. haiis..
i dunnoe la..
friends also.. haiis.
dunnoe wad the hell happening..
how much i wish things were still the same..
how much i wish holiday isnt over yet..
cos holidae over.. everything isnt the same le..
some things went so wrongg. haiis..
learnt how to pray frm a friend, the dae bfore bahs..
then was praying since then..
some things eventually got better..
i shall continue with the prayingg.
it helps..
been struggling to studyy historyy.
trying to remember..
but i seems to get the dates mixed up..
haiis. it requires efforts..
so i shouldnt give up..
i persevers..

todae went tmp library..
went there alonee..
return mine and his books..
then after tad. i went to borrowed 3 books. lol
hrmm.. then went going homee..
walking to the 81 theree.. at the bus interchange..
when walkingg.. saw albert.. woohhooo.
cool.. he so damn CUTE..
but then.. reminds me of someone..
haiis. my memories.. my past..

okokk.. seriously no mood now.
need go haf dinner le..
starving man. didnt had lunch..
after tad need to studyy for tml history test.
no mood to updatee. haiis..

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#mango92
MANGOaddictor

2006-06-24T21:26:00.001+08:00

todae my two lil cousins was
suppose to go for tuition in the morning.
i woke up at 7plus..
then aunt told me. slp 1hour more..
so i went backk to sleep..
sleepsleepsleep..
sleep till 10plus. i woke up again.
i looked at the time..
they are still aslpp..
then i actually wanted to
call my aunt wake up de.
i sat on the bed and think..
shall i ..??
then aunt suddenly say.. slpp..
dunn go tuition lerhs.
orhs. once i lie down..
my two lil cousin wake up lerhs..
then started to bcom damn hyperr.
i tried to slp.
when i wanna fall aslp..
they will either suddenly shout or
suddenly hit against me.
cos they playing marhs..
i didnt get back to my dreamland..
so i woke up and went to wash up.
then went to the studyroom.
pack my things..
then went down..
then they started playing piano..
girl play on the left side.
boy play on the right side..
they played differently..
different piece.. so err.. hhaaaa..
after a while..
we all went up to changee..
went down had breakfast..
then set off to my house..
as if it's my housee.. hhaaaa.
it would be wonderful if i own a hse NOW.
hhaaa. peace seh.. how GREAT.. =))
nobody will be theree to disturb..
wooos.. cool.. XD
took taxi..
then reached le..
then i think 1 plus i ate a few mouthful
of porridge.. then gave my sis..
cos dunn wanna eat..
then 2plus.. my brother wanna call
mac delivery..
ok lorhs.
then think.. ehs. cannot arhs.
if we call for ours only.
then the rest of the kids how..?
they cant possibly see us eat rights..
then aiiyah.. dunn wann buy lerhs..
then after tad aunt say buy lah..
then she go call..
30minutes tad delivery guy camee..
then eat lorhs..
then 5plus.. went outt..
went to cut hair..
the aunty cut till my fringe so DAMN SHORT.
HATE IT MAN.
all blame on the aunty.
shouldnt let her touch my hair man.
too bad lahs. cos the one who alway
cut my hair for me.. is serving another customer..
then bo bian lorhs..
kinda REGRET... arggghhh.
ok forget it. wad done is done.
wad done cant be undone..
hrmm.. tml last day of holidae lerhs..
kinda sad.. kinda happyy.. lol. half half.
why sad..? cos need to studyy.
have exams. common tests. class tests..
stress are comiinggg.. haiiis.
wanna enjoying slacking. goin out.
cant have so much funs..
cant sleep late.wake up late
have to struggle to wake up
in the early morningg..

why happy..? cos can get weekly allowance.
cos holidae need use ownself de money then
everydae go out. spend spend spend.
then now so damn brokee.
so need moneyy urgently.. hehhs =))
can start saving moeny again.. hees..
can see friends.. crapCRAPCRAP
simply loves the times crapping nonstop.
also parents wont nagg so muchh..
like ''dunn everydae go out la.STUDY la.
stay at home la. take care of siblings la..''
i wont be able to hear them on school daes =))

hrmm..
i had left two holidae assignment UNDONE.
one dunnoe wheree.
one havent read the da vinci code..
hrmm.. do i have time to do them??
tml cant possibly do them..
cos gonna be damn busy ENJOYINGG..
ENJOYING THE LAST DAY OF HOLIDAE.
so tonight..? burn midnight oil to finish them?
yeahh.. i shall do tad..

tomorrow. i will turn to a playing robot.
sport robot i shall say..
firstly.. wake up in the morning.
then go swimming or wild wild wet. [havent decide]
then go cycling to dunnoe wheree..
maybe to east coast or jus ard pasir ris area??
or WHERE EVER..
then go beach..
then badminton.
then runs..
then lastly sleeps. =))
tads how u enjoys life yarhs.
ok la.. hhaaa.
waiting for tomorrow's fun..

imiissesHIM
iloveHIM.
to me.. he is my DEARESTBOY. =))
wanting to see him. hhaas..
addiction. LOL.
ok la. shall stop here.
chiong my hmwrk. and strybook.

if tml i didnt answer ur call or
reply your sms arhs.. u should knoe wad
i'm doing hors.. hhaaas..
dunn blame me for..
late replying.
late return call hors.. =))

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#mango92
MANGOaddictor

2006-06-23T22:25:00.000+08:00

todae 8 plus..
got waken up by motherr..
then after tad.. wash up..
and blahblahblah..
was around.. 11plus le bahs..?
mother, sis and me.
then took bus to whitesand.
then took mrt to bugis.
then meet my mother's sisterr.
then went around walk walk walkk.
had our lunchh at kfc.
i had zinger meal.
nicee. yummy..
then after tad.. carry on with our shopping.
shop shop shop..
then went to OG...
spend aroundd 1 to 2hours theree.
hhhaaa. see how time fliess..
alright. mother bought me and my sis clothing..
added up total 100plus sehs..
so damn ex lorhs.
my sis cloth more ex than mine.
she bought more than me also..
ok.. it's the first time my mom spend
100over on clothes for me and my sis..
erhmms. kinda guilty after knowing much it all cost.
i shouldnt have bought tad surfer pradise shirt.
told my sis not to ask mother buy this buy tad.
she dunn caree me.. -.-
ok.. i'm thinking tad.. i shall save money.
then return some back to my mother..
hrmm.. yupps. i shall do tad..
as for my sisterr..
maybe i shall make her do the same..?
hrmm.. dunn think she cann.
cos everytime eat eat eat de.. lol.
alrights.. then 6plus. takee mrt back to whitesandd.
then takee bus togetherr.
goodbye to themm..
then i alight at my aunt's hse there de stop.
then went up her house lorhs..
went for bathe straight away.. hhaaa.
so tired ehs.

then 7 then had dinner while watchin the
channel 8 tad show..
after tad.. 8pm.. went up to start doing.
then my two cousins shouting shout shout.
talk talk talk.. hhaaa..
do till now.. 10plus..
had to complete two moree.. arggg..
driving me mad man..
think gonna stop hereee..
then go chiong my strybk..
then watch my tv then slp.. hehh..
it's so cold hereee in the study room.
tml have to wake up early.
cos my two cousin have to go tuition
at marine parade.. woahh.
tml sure tiredd till argghh.. hhaaa..
okok.. tink shall stop here le..

todae actually gonna meet them
for completing of holildae assignment.
but then was cancelled at last min.
cos he tired..?? hrmm.. anywayy..
imisshim ehs. =)
alrightalright i talking so muchh..
iloveHIM=))

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#mango92
MANGOaddictor

2006-06-22T22:07:00.000+08:00

todae woke up at 10plus.
then go bathee.
then after tad.. watch tv till 12plus.
then went down take bus 89.
when i went down. bus 89 jus drove off.
then the second bus.
in front dunn have the bus no.
then i see inside.
ehs. why got people de..
then when drove past..saw the behindd..
bus 89.. -.- stupid ehs..
then waited for quite some time.
then another bus 89 came..
went up..
so many people lorhs..
then alight at downtown east there.
walk to ken hse..
ernest and emon already theree.
then went to sit..
till 3 then we went to take bus.
saw bus 21.
then we ran for the bus. -.-
was running then..
after ard 1hourr. going 4 alreadyy.
finally reached the tuition's tcher hse.
after the 1hour bus jorney..
was so damn tired..
no mood to studyy liaos.
then go tcher hse like siansian de. hhaa.
then we ordered macwings. hhhaaa.
then tcher treat.. so good. =)
then 5plus. the food came.
then we went to the living room.
eat while watching tv.
watched he lan chun theree.
watched till 6 then go back to do our last question..
after the last question..
we went off lerhs.. =))
then took mrt. to simei.
emon go there jus to see his cousin..
then take mrt to tm..
then went toyR
play play playy.
play till 7 plus..
then mini toons buy sweet..
total of 5.05 hhaa. for duuno how many grams.
then went take bus 81 homee.
i reached home aroundd 9pm..
quite surprise tad father didnt call =)
goodgoodgood. xDD
then bathee.
and here i'm blogging..
tonight tell father tml..
gonna saty over at aunt's housee. =))
can sit the massage chair againn.. hehh.
hrmm. tml gonna be quite busyy.
morning go bugis..
afternoon. might be going ernest hse..
then after tad.. go aunt's housee.
hrmm.. ok la.. shall endd heree.
gonna chiong my strybk.
three days never readd le..
gonna cover all todaee =))
iiloveHIM

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