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Saturday, September 09, 2006 somthing wrongg with this blog..!!!!! cant post.. then make new de. now can post. wth man. now using backk this. -.- sorry peoplee.. 08august2006 remember my previous post that says.. about my sixth sensee. feels tad something is going very wrongg. yeahh. indeed.. haiis. it happened ytd night.. ard 1plus.. my father ask me go balcony.. then he started of by sayingg.. since u like no interest in studying. monday sch reopen i go sch tell tcher. you drop out of school.. blahblahsblahhss.. then says everytime he come home. see me sitting in front the comp. smsingg. chatting on phonee. then he ask who is it. i didnt tell him lahs.. then he asked my for my hp. he ask me go my room takee. then i go lahs. then i flip open my hp. wanna delete msges. change the namee.. but then he said dunnid press anythingg. just give me. i have no time to change or delete. then give him le. no choicee. then went bbackk balconyy. then he flip open my phone. tad time. i immed turn my back on him. then he ask me somethingg. i didnt answerr him.. then went backk the room. tads was when he flip open my phone. if i'm not wrong. he went to my inbox and saw the name. then he askk me smthh. i didnt says anythingg.. he asked me how long i'm goingg to hide it frm him. i didnt said anythingg.. he said loads of things lahs.. then finally i told him. just started not long ago only.. then he asked abt tad time the add i gave him. i said tad add is real de. then he says. the name and hp no. is not the person de rights.. he said tad he knew it all along. he just didnt want to expose.. he wants to see how long i'm gonna hide it frm him.. also said tad.. he been testing me. just tad i didnt knoee.. all these and all that.. he knoes tad i lied to him through the days.. he just didnt tell me.. also mentioned tad.. sec2 have relationship. is way too early.. say where got heart to study. blahblahblahh. ytd is the night tad i cried till... *ahhhhsss. he talk till ard 2.30 then stop. i 3plus then slpp.. but he didnt ask to break or anythingg.. now wad i can do is to study hard. prove to him tad i can manage lorhs. tads the one and only thing i could do.. i think he gonna tell my mama. then my mama will come pestering me to tell her EVERYTHING. hopefully he didnt tell my mama lahs.. todae woke up at 12pm.. woke up with a swollen eye.. wth. so ugly. then aunt came. ask wanna go out.. then i bo mood marhs. told her dunno lahs.. go here go there.. also the same de. then she says go lahs. then go change and blahblahblahs then go lorhs.. then she bought me a shirt and a skirt. total of 83$$ =X so freaking ex siarhs.. then 4plus reached homee. ard 5plus, go my room.. started doing my maths hmwrk. **argghhss. i forgotten most of it. =( referred to notebook. then slowly do. completed it aroundd 6.30pm. so damn longg. hhaaa. 08august06-MIDNIGHT my mama knoe about it le. come home le. keep saying got *ahems* liaos dunnid marmi le.. isnt she lame. hhaaa. -.- todae like i make him uphappy like dat =/ sorry lahs kiies, i love you alrights.. dunn like so moody le lahs. see u like tad i want cry siarhs. ='( rraahs=*] #mango92 theBEAUTIFULmomentsWEshares VOLLEYBALLfreak* at 8:54 PM *** Thursday, September 07, 2006 todae go out at 1plus.. then frm 2.30 onwards.. father keep callingg. called about 3times. untill about.. 3.30pm then stopped. then my family called ard 3 times also. stopped at 4plus. wth man. hate this the most. hate it when he calls and check on me. hate it totally.. like spoiling my trip siarhs. hate hate hate hate hate it.. !!!! went tmp. when going up the escalator of tmp mall.. saw ernest. donovan. huda and nabilah on the going down escalator. this is fate man. -.- lols.. hhaaaa. nursie keep orh hor-ing hhaaaa.. dunno wad he orh hors for.. lols.. nursie is BAD xDD you GOOD lorhs. go out. never jio de. like dat de lorhs.. hhaaa. xDD nursie is BAD.. hhhaaaa.. okok lahs. dont bully lerhs. hhaaa.. went in popular.. come out tad time saw wye lin and samantha. then went arcadee. saw some friends.. luckily u got the used ticket for me. if not arhs. i dunno wad to show to my father le. PHEWw.. luckily luckily.. hhaaaa.. p.s; i only wants one. u gave me five. hhaaa. thanks man. can say my friends de.. hhaaa. xDD ard 5.45pm took bus no. 3 go home. reached home aroundd 6.45pm like tadd lorhs.. cook noodles eat till 8pm. lols.. then talked on phone till 8.45pm. then 9pm then go bathe. after bathingg. watched tv.. after tadd.. use comp again lorhs.. then now talking on phone while bloggingg.. luckily my father neverr say anythingg to me ever since he come home man. it's like some cold war going on heree. hhaaaa. dont care =X oklahs. got to stop hereee. dunno wad to continue le. lols.. sarang haeyo.. rraahs=*] #mango92 theBEAUTIFULmomentsWEshares VOLLEYBALLfreak* at 11:30 PM *** my sixth sense. makes me feels as if something.. is goingg to be very wrongg. something is not gonnaa go right.. wth. nevermind. jus sixth sense. dont believe. dont believee. rraahs=*] #mango92 sarange haeyo theBEAUTIFULmomentsWEshares VOLLEYBALLfreak* at 12:55 AM *** Wednesday, September 06, 2006 woke up 8plus.. then 9.15am left to takee bus. to school for just one lit test. stupid isnt it.. cant it wait till after the holidae? cant understandd why she makes us go backk during the holidae to just takee one test.. haiis.. nevermindd. the test okok lahs. dunno can pass not. not much confident. if were to pass.. think will just pass border line nia.. test ended at 11am.. after the test.. filled in name and email address.. reached home at 2plus.. the whole day slackkedd. did nothingg. when i reached home.. slack a while.. then my mother came to me.. keep pestering me to tell her if i had bf or wadd. am i in a relationship or wadd.. i'm so deadd.. i havent touched any of my holidae hmwrkk. wad am i going to do? just no interest to do ehs.. =/ seriously. dunno wad happens to me todae.. just now feeling kind of frustrated.. dunno why i feels this way too.. now i feels talking to my mum. i wanna spills all my troubles to her. but then.. my father is home.. dunn wanna let my father kpo. so i didnt talkk to my mum.. i think u should ask urself, girl. is it worth it? think it through.. dont keep it to urself.. let it out to someone whom u trust.. bottling up ur feelings dont helps.. trust me.. rraahs=*) #mango92 sarang haeyo. theBEAUTIFULmomentsWEshares VOLLEYBALLfreak* at 10:11 PM *** Tuesday, September 05, 2006 todae went out at ard 12.30pm then came home aroundd 8.10pm. lols. wooo.. lols. shiiokk.. hhaaa. siians.. tomorrow need wake up at 8am. 9.45am got to reach school. got literature test. wth man.. haiis. why cant wait till sch re-open then give... alamakk siiaa.. dunno if i can pass not siarhs. =X if pass arhs. think is just pass border line nia. hhaaaa.. aiiyahs. better than fail rights. =/ hrmm.. wad to write nehs..? dunno lehs.. think i shall end heree.. iLOVEhim; SARANG HAEYO =*) thingsAREgettingBETTERasEACHdayPASSES=))#youMAKEmeBELIEVEinMYSELFwhenNOBODYelseCANhelp **IwannaFLYlookingINyourEYES #mango92 theBEAUTIFULmomentsWEshares VOLLEYBALLfreak* at 10:23 PM *** had a chat with my parents just now.. didnt chat for a very very long time le.. erhms.. i think frm 11plus talk talkk till ard12.30 think got more than an hour.. talk so muchh. dunno my father understand not. i think he understand bahs.. he says wadd he wont force me to do wad i dont wish to do. he also said that he cant stop me from going out.. blahblahblahh.. then talk talk talkk.. dunnoe whyy he talk till relationship theree. -.- that part i sians till =.= okok. now goingg 1am lerhs..!!!! =/ okays. i seriously need to slp. my eyesbag getting worst. wth. theBEAUTIFULmomentsWEshares VOLLEYBALLfreak* at 12:50 AM *** Monday, September 04, 2006 was pissed off in the morningg. around 7 like that.. siblings keep calling me wake up. lols.. i told them 7.30 then call me wake up. then i think i went back to slp. then my hp vibrated. cos got set alarm. then 2mins after the alarm. received a msg.. then went washed up.. around 8.35 then go take bus. then walking to sch gate tad time.. jas msg me. said tad the HE make up lesson cancelled. then i was like wth.. then i called her. ask her how she knoes. she said those who gone earlier. was chased out.. 0.o then after much thought.. we decided to try our luck to go in. yeah. we got in. go canteen sit sit sit. ms juliana was late..!!! hhaaaa. then she says study in canteen. we was like aiiyos.. hhaaaa.. then she revised lorhs.. then around 10am bahs. she says give 10mins breakk. then in the endd. bcome ard 30mins breakk. hhaaa... then she revised through faster then usual.. then finish at 10.45am. wooo.. 15mins early release.. =D then after tad.. went to have breakfast/lunch?? aiiyahs. breakfast=lunch. lunch=breakfast. hhaaaaas.. =X eat damn slow.. hhaaa.. then like dat.. then like these lorhs. drag time.. reached home at 3pm. then watched tv lorhs.. we talked on phone frm 6.30 till 7plus. then go bathee. then 8plus talked again.. talked till ard 8.45 then put down. then msg lorhs. lols.. *his words melted my heart. PROGRESSED* xDD i'm satisfied with wad i have. =)) thanks for everythingg.. iiLOVEyou,myDEAR SARANG HAEYO #mango92 theBEAUTIFULmomentsWEshares VOLLEYBALLfreak* at 9:12 PM *** Sunday, September 03, 2006 yesterdae night talk on phone from 10plus till 2am. hhaaa.. he's was at home with his friends at tad time.. yeahh.. they stopped playing at 4am. if i'm not wrong.. then started playing frm ard 9pm.. early i knoe. i acc him on the phone till 4am.. hhaaaa. but then i very tired liaos. so didnt accompany lorhs.. he's so sweet on the phonee.. argghhhs.. it melted my heart. xDD i'mLOVINGit. =D todae morning. early morningg heard more than 6times of aeroplanes flew past. it woke me up frm my sleep. wth. but then i went back to my sweet slp.. hhaaa.. 12.20pm i was still sleeping.. then.. i felt some vibration of the pillow. the vibration of my handphone la. then i answered the call. he called. xDD then i ask him so early wake up? then he told me.. 7plus they wake up. go play basketball liaos.. they really arhs.. not tired mehs..?? then we talked talked talked. tml he giving me wake up call.. =)) cos tml i need go sch for the HE make up lesson marhs. actually i intend to slp at home instead of going sch de. but then. changed of mind. go for HE make up lesson. lols.. tml's plan- DONE=)) he's SO SO SO sweet. xDD then we talk till 1pm then put down lorhs. lols.. yes my dear. tml will give u a tight hug de. the whole afternoon. did almost nothingg except studying abit of history.. then use comp.. was repeating the song BECAUSE YOU LIVE over and over again. i'm SO ADDICTED to this songg.. hhaaa.. oh yeahh. it my addiction. xDD iLOVEhim; SARANG HAEYO =*) thingsAREgettingBETTERasEACHdayPASSES=)) #youMAKEmeBELIEVEinMYSELFwhenNOBODYelseCANhelp **IwannaFLYlookingINyourEYES #mango92 theBEAUTIFULmomentsWEshares VOLLEYBALLfreak* at 5:33 PM *** Saturday, September 02, 2006 jus now 2pm actually wanna call him de.. but i didnt call larhs.. hhaaa. so qiao.. he called at 2.05pm. hhaaas.. ask whether wanna go his house then ok lorhs. i called my father. tell him tad i going my friend housee.. then off i go.. hhaaaa.. reached his house 3.15. then they spray spray. make the room dirty. then habe to clean up. hhhaaa. lols. then think around 3plus.. going 4.. his mama come home. then like dat lorhs.. after a while they left.. when we got down. they nowhere in sight liaos. lols. then take bus home.. he acc me throughout the journey.. then i acc him till his bus comee. then i go home lorhs.. things are getting better as days passes. thanks for todaee.. thanks for the surprise yarhs. =D i just simply loves the moment when you hold me tightly in your arms.. it's too comfortable that i can slp. =X just simply thanks for everythingg.. yeah. we talking much more now.. but not tad much through the bus journey ehs.. =/ **underPROGRESSING i'm so in love with you. #mango92 theBEAUTIFULmomentsWEshares VOLLEYBALLfreak* at 7:23 PM *** Friday, September 01, 2006 went out at ard 2.30pm.. went to plp's hse.. then slack slack till ard 5plus then go tm.. they go play arcade lahs.. then 7plus. went back plp's hse.. watched tv.. then 8plus then go eat.. time passed very fast.. eat till ard 9.30pm then he acc me home.. didnt send him to bus stop.. i rushed home. cos was 10 alreadyy. cos father say must reach home beforee him. so i rushed home lorhs.. luckily.. i reached home bforee him.. he reached ard 10mins laterr. then he say me wad i too much. then after all those scoldinggs. he went out. wthh. he is making me rebellious.. i hate it to the core.. i'm like nothing to him. i do good he also scold. i do bad he also scold. i really dunno wad must i do in order to make him happy once. it's like i'm a bad daughter to him no matter how good i do. i really dunno wad he wants.. i really wanna leave the housee.. i can no longerr tolerate him anymoree.. i have enough lerhs.. he will see it one day.. he will realise it. i'm not going out with bad accompany. now i knoe.. MY OWN FATHER DONT EVEN TRUST ME AT ALL. THEN WAD FOR I REMAIN HERE IN THE HSE. it doesnt matter as if i'm in the house not.. i exist or not. there's no difference.. i knoee.. COS THERE'S COMMUNICATION BETWEEN US. we dont really talk. he dont really care also.. so wad forr...... thanks for being there for me. yes. things gets better each day. i'm so in love with u. SARANG HAEYO. =)) #mango92 theBEAUTIFULmomentsWEshares VOLLEYBALLfreak* at 10:36 PM *** finally.. i manage to sleep well. bcause not been sleeping well for the past few days.. i'm HIGH. later goingg out. thanks my thoughtful friend. thanks for arranging things for us. hhaaaaa.. u should knoe wad i talking abt lahs. hhhaaaa.. u are simply a great friend. i'm INSANE hhhaaaa.. =X i SERIOUSLY have to learn how to talk. i need to knoe how to communicate well.. cos it's the major key to a relationship marhs.. hhaaaaa.. okokk. i'm insane=)) ok. i'm in the rush to go out now. i will blog tonight if i come home early. =)) theBEAUTIFULmomentsWEshares VOLLEYBALLfreak* at 2:12 PM *** Thursday, August 31, 2006 yesterdae night.. 10plus. when i lie on bed wanna slp.. my tears.. started to drop.. continiously. dunno whyy also. dunnno wad happen.. it lasted for ard 10minutes bahs.. then.. after tad.. somethingg unexpected happens.. DAMN HYPER till cant sleep.. hhaaaa.. i gone crazyy.. 30august2006. the dae. SARANG HAEYO =)) i've no interest in studying todae. hhaass. cos i've gone insane =)) hrrmm.. todae quite a gd day i can sayy.. cos for every teacher i knoes.. i greets. good morning *[tcher name]* follows by happy teachers' day.. lols.. todae had the tchers' day concert at ard 11.25am at the same time freaking overr the lit test after the concert. cos i cant seems to get anythingg in. i cant rememberr anyythinggg. then in the end.. the test postpone.. =.= when i reached home. changed. when i wanna go out.. got this call. ms banu called.. to inform the lit test on tuesdae.. after tadd.. i rush out lerhs. was drizzling tad time. then dunn wanna bring umbrella marhs. then i rush off to the bus stop.. hhaaa. then went to the bus stop.. took bus. alighted at the stop opp whitesand pri. waited for them.. while waiting for one more plp.. saw brandon standing in bus 17. then i was likee errrr...!!!! hhaaaa.. okokkk.lols.. then after the one more plp reached. took bus to plp's hse lorhs. i cut the story short. the rest i dunn wan say here. hhaaaa. =)) the end. as long as we are happy. nothing will matters.. =)) i trust u. i believe you.. you simply rocks my life todae. >.* i'll give u more of my surprises next time.. yes. we agree. things will be better as time gets by.iloveu=)) you arhs. like keeping thinking deep.. dont think so much le lahs.. u will do well de. dont forget. u are PRO de ma. lols.. rmbrs. if u got anythingg.. must share with me ehs. dont keep it to yourself.. not healthy de.. xDD thanks for seeing me homee. i noe the journey was longg. kinda boring too rights.. =X sorry lahs. i will learn to talk talk talk de. =)) SARANG HAEYO ;D thanks for making me believe in love once againn.. thanks for your everythingg todae=)) simply loves it' i'm so in love with you. xDD #mango92 theBEAUTIFULmomentsWEshares VOLLEYBALLfreak* at 10:08 PM *** Tuesday, August 29, 2006 damn tired todae lahs.. haiis. didnt manage to slp well for the past 2 nights. been thinking of somethings.. it occupies my mind too much tad i cant slp.. managed to slp only for only 2 to 3 hours.. =(( i'm unable to concentrate studying maths.. dunnoe whyy lahs.. =/ are only able to concentrate studying history. haiis. dunnoe wads happeningg.. tomorrow maths common test lerhs. it a heavy weightage lahs.. but then.. haiis.. tomorrow lehs.. i'm still unsure of how to do some questions.. arrgghhhh.. help me. haiis.. i think i not gonna make it for tml maths test.. =X wish me good luck man.. tml a really crazyy day for me. test test test test everywhereee.. i tml not only have maths test. got history and home econ also. alamakk.. haiis.. home econ, class test.. vitamins and minerals. think cant make it also. wish me good luckk.. history.. think can make it lahs.. hopefully lahs.. =X okokkk. got to go studyy lerhs.. good night. hv a real swt dream..
i just feel tad u are the who gave me tad courage.. ** angel. not i dont want tell u.. ever since then.. been feeling as if u are right bside me. but then its all just an illusion, which might never gonna come true.. the closest friend will it be until true reveals.. >.* ihavefallenforhim.iistillcantbelieveit.omgg.!!iihavenointentionoflettinghimknoe=)) #mango92 theBEAUTIFULmomentsWEshares VOLLEYBALLfreak* at 10:42 PM *** Monday, August 28, 2006 life is complicated todae was okok lahs. just a few drops of tears. only she saw.. cos she sit beside me. todae english common test.. okok lahs. not badd.. kinda happy todae. thanks ehs. >.* todae reached homee aroundd 8.30pm bahs. hehhhs.. =)) thursdae. i wanna return late. damn late. if possible 11plus lahs.. hahhaaaas.. =)) okok.. nothingg i gonna say now.. tads all for todae bahs.. =)) #mango92 omg. i'm actually falling for him =X theBEAUTIFULmomentsWEshares VOLLEYBALLfreak* at 10:19 PM *** Sunday, August 27, 2006 i hope things can rest. put an end to everything and start afresh.. hopefully. we can be like wad we used to be. put the past behind us and continue with life.. i wonder.. if u would forgive me if i had done u any wrongs.. maybe i did u some wrongs unknowingly.. so here i'm to say SORRY to you. u will see it or not. i'm not suree. but then.. the word sorry.. came right truely and deeply, sincerely from my heart.. things were better todae bahs?? able to concentrate more on maths.. only my brain not functioning normally. they dont wants to thinkk.. those harder question. were not able to do. haiis.. no interest to think for hard question too. just dunnoe whyy. tried studying history. nothing gets in.. so i stopped. now. troubling with the newspaper report.. on the class acting de. havent do yet.. i'm the only one doing it.?? the two of them dunniid to do..? haiis. nevermind.. got used to it lerhs. everytime like that de.. so let it be.. i wanna start life afreshh. congratulations ehs.. found your dream girl lerhs. must cherish her alrights. dont let her slip awayy.. korr. thanks for being here for me when there's almst no one here.. thanks for your advices and all.. and.. dont be too nice to me la.. plp shy marhs. =X hhaaaa.. jk.. =)) your shoulder next time then i use la.. anyway. THANKS.. =D IF you got problems.. can come to me also.. i help you de.. if u want lend shoulder also can la. i lend you mine lahs.. MUST RMBE THIS ehs. **nevermind larhs hhhaaaa. =)) heys. thanks for ur concern.. thanks for ur your advice too.. studyy hard ehs. jia you. =)) #mango92 theBEAUTIFULmomentsWEshares VOLLEYBALLfreak* at 7:05 PM *** Saturday, August 26, 2006 i read your blog.. "she's gonna regret blaming the wrong person" he was the one who said tad.. i think u have mistaken. he wasnt sayingg about u.. he's saying some other matter in his life. as if i got say eur name lyke dat. eu eurself guilty den will tink dat im saying abt eu! TRUE ENUFF? are u saying about me.?? i dunnoe.. if it is tad u are saying me.. the above u said had hurt me deeply. bcos. my mind is running real wild at tad point of time. i already have alots goingg through in my mindd. not only this misunderstanding. there are also my personal problems. Family problems. Studies. Stress. Friendship and all.. i jus simply cant stop my tad silly imagination. maybe it is all bcos of my silly imagination.. tad has cause this misunderstandingg? i dunnoee. i seriously dunnoe. i feels that.. u all are no longer aroundd. i feel so emptyy in the inside.. but wad can i do?? i'm afraid to make the matter worst. so i choose to let it be.. but will this solve the problems.. will it solve this misunderstanding..?? i don’t think so. but i just cant think of anything To clear this misunderstanding.. haiis..
i looked through the pics and neo-prints we took bforee. it makes me cries. i dunnoe why.. my tears just roll down uncontrolably.. my tears cant help seeing our friendship breaks into pieces. i dunno wad i can chat with u now. i feels as if we are like strangers..
whenever i wants peace to think things through.. theres is always no way i can have it. just like todae. i want peace.. but.. my hse was noisy like dunno wadd. when i plan go out. the weather suddenly change. it was like wad the. i dunnoe wad happening. then i tried to study. do my homework. but there is no way i can concentrate. i just stared blankly into my math paper. i cant even think of wad solution to use. or how can i solve it.. it is really terrible. haiis..
todae slpt till afternoon 1plus dreamt of alots of things.. theres one good. the rest not good de.. haiis.. why this happening. i thought i cried in my dream. but. when i wake up. my tears was theree.. i dunnoe whats happeningg. ='((
-*DEPRESSED #mango92 theBEAUTIFULmomentsWEshares VOLLEYBALLfreak* at 7:58 PM *** Friday, August 25, 2006 i'm not a good friend. u wont be happy with me. you wont enjoy with me ardd.. i'm quiet. u will be bored to death being with me. tad makes me not a good friend. theBEAUTIFULmomentsWEshares VOLLEYBALLfreak* at 6:08 PM *** cried* i'm a NOBODY. u dunnid tell me. i knoe.. there is no one there who TRULY cares.. things werent this way.. things went real wrongg todaee.. i have no words to decribe todae. it is just utterly terrible.. shir. if u insist of thinkingg tad i'm the one who spreadd.. i cant help. i cant force u to believe in my words.. i dunno wad to do. but just to left u all alonee.. it hurts me real bad. but i cant think of any better solution.. haiis. things were never ever the same ever again.. okok. whatever it is. it's all my fault alrights.. i'm in the wrong alrights.. haiis. he's the first one who ask wad happened. ii cried at tad point of time. ii didnt tell him anyythingg. cos nothing comes out frm my mouth. ii missed the chance to talk to him.. how much i wish tad we are not in school at tad moment.. how much i wish tad i could cry out loud in someone's arm.. i'm gonna die for maths common test next week. wad recently happening is not the distraction. there still much more things in my mindd.. my grandfatherr had been real stubborn. been asking him to go for the operation thingyy. he still refuses.. he sayd medicine will helps. but. does it..?? NO.. it doesnt helpp.. he still gettingg heart pain.. argghh. i dunnoe lahs.. i'm so afraid that one day.. he might just pass out like that.. haiis. dunnoe lahs.. arggghhhhss..!!!!! if all this goes on. i might go crazyy.. i dunnoe wad to do. trying to concentrate on studies. but i simply just cant.. my parents been working day and nights. seldom get to see them. night they come back. i alrdy slp. when i wake up in the morning.. they're still slpingg. been feeling so neglected.. like our relationship had been brought apart.. result in our communication a big gap.. i'm so afraid tad i will turn to outside friend.. which i'm tyring not to.. i dunno. i dunno.. i only knoes tadd. i have been staying away frm homee as long as i can.. like in the mornings,afternoons and evenings. returns only at nights.. i dunnoe. i really dunnoee.. haiis.. i'm damn stressed out. a stop for now. #mango92 theBEAUTIFULmomentsWEshares VOLLEYBALLfreak* at 5:53 PM *** Thursday, August 24, 2006 coville says.. yesterdae NIGHTperformance was a nice one.. was it really a nice one..?? i wonderr..?? hhaaaa.. make up nice..?? omgg. it's so damnn thickk.. far see nicee.. near see.. u will say wadd thee.. hhaaaa. okokk. had a REALnice chat with her just.. she definately a REAL friendly and nice lady i shall say. hhaaaas... thanks S.W for the advices and all. appreciate it loads.. =)) okokk. i need to slp badly.. i'm so tiredd.. GOODNIGHTS.. xDD theBEAUTIFULmomentsWEshares VOLLEYBALLfreak* at 11:03 PM *** my life is in a BIG MESS now i know. i'm nobody to them. i exist to them when they need me. when they dont need me. they will like.. leave me alone like dat.. it hurts me. i wanna cry. but i tell myself. i cant. i need to control my tears. i cant cry in front of so many plp.. they never ever treated me as their REALfriend for all i knoe. i really dunn know what to do.. my mind is in such a big COMPLICATION. they are forever "snatching" with me over somethingg. in the end. they get it. and i left with nothing by my side. it hurts me real badly. but i told myself to forget it. get back on my feet. smile againn.. sometimes. i get over it real fast. i remember one time.. it hurt so badly tad i cried almost every night.. it tooks me quite sometime to get over it. till now. i havent really forgotten all. some part of it still left in my mindd.. haiis.. i dunno how to forget all. wei shen me hai yao wo you wei xiao lai dai guo?? http://data.myidol.org/var/www/html/mf/chinese/chinese.php?c_lang=&sn=安靜&mode=display&dn=&path=../lyric/chinese/Male/Jay%20Zhou/The%20One%20Jay%20Zhou%20Concert/lyric10.htm click and go this link.. haiis. ='(( i really dont have the mood to study. the common test next week. NEXT WEEK lehs..!!! haiis.. i think i will fail bahs.. haiis.. i seriously no mood to do anythinggg. i feel like wanna go away for some time.. to forget everything. start afresh.. but how am i suppose to do so.. when i dont have enoughh moneyy..!!! myCOMPLICATEDlife. i can no longer hold on. i need someone here. whom i can TRUST. whom i can spill all my problems to. whom can lend me the shoulder to cry on. even if there is no one. my pillow will always be there.. a thingy which i cry on.. COMPLICATEDlife -*i'm slipping off where i'm standingg. #mango92 theBEAUTIFULmomentsWEshares VOLLEYBALLfreak* at 11:27 AM *** Tuesday, August 22, 2006 click this link. go see. http://video.google.com/videoplay?docid=-9101138931119175765&q=%E7%AB%A5%E8%AF%9D theBEAUTIFULmomentsWEshares VOLLEYBALLfreak* at 10:14 PM *** iiNEEDaSHOULDER. aSHOULDERtoCRYon.. ii need to cry everythingg out.. ii feeling so,, ???? dunnoe how to say.. ='(( theBEAUTIFULmomentsWEshares VOLLEYBALLfreak* at 9:50 PM *** todae had a rehearsal. then the real performance in the afternoon. tcher says we sang soft. =/ haiiis.. iiDONTunderstanddWHYuBLUFFme. WHYuLIEtoME..?? I REALLY DONT UNDERSTAND YOU.. after this.. i feel like i dont wanna understand u anymoree. i have endure enough pain through all thesee.. i'm SICKnTIRED of it already.. ii give up on all these. hopefully everything will stop here. a FULLSTOP. NO MORE CONTINUATION.. the song heree.. AN JING.. tells ALMOST all in my heart. for now.. at this moment.. i dont want to talk to anyonee. give me silence.. silence to throw away those "UNWANTEDstuffs" i dont knoe wad or who u are doingg for. but i'm doing all these for MYSELF. my decision. my destiny. my fate all lies in my hands. i will never let it come under anyone control.. that is ME. MYSELF. -*alone theBEAUTIFULmomentsWEshares VOLLEYBALLfreak* at 8:04 PM *** Sunday, August 20, 2006 todae wake up early man. aroundd 9plus lah. cos need go uncle's hse marhs. ate light breakfast.. then dont wad to wear larhs. most of the clothes washingg lahs. then at last choose the pink colour op shirt with skirt lorhs. then 11plus then set off to his hse larhs. when reached.. saw this white t-shirt guyy. thought was somee teenager age ard 18or 19 plus lahs.. but then.. he turn out to be my uncle's wife's brother.. -.- alamakk. =X he look so youngg lorhs.. hhaaa.. mistaken him for some teenagers.. hhaaaa.. then after tad saw one same coloured shirt as me de guyy. tad one then is teenager lahs.. behindd lookk. okok lahs. not badd larhs.. hhaaa.. but i not interested lahs.. hhaaa. =X then we went to the wadd room.. think should be function room bahs.. then sat down. those adults talkk talkk. moree peoplee come comee comeee. then room was full of peoplee.. then i nothing to do larhs.. then i go stand at the door theree. hhaaa. then suddenly got this black shirt guyy. walked into the room.. with a glimpse. thought he malay malay lahs. cos his skin colour damn tan man. until i sat behind him saw his shirt.. behind wrote wadd shaolin thingyy. i forgot wad i wrote le. but is shaolin de T-shirt.. then got his namee theree. then comfirm he chinese lahs. hhaaa.. he not badd lahs.. then around 4plus bahs. went up to my uncle place.. then he thereee.. after tad. i walk to the door. actually wanna go down find brother de.. then saw him come out. wear shoe. wanna go liaos.. after tad he went to lift theree. waiting for lift. i dunnoe whyy. i just stand at the door there. see him get into the lift and leave.. hhaaa. stupid siarhs.. hhaaa.. okok. dont siao.. hhaaa.. then like that lorhs. dunnoe when will see him againn. you yuan zai jian bahs. =)) so siians. alot people leave. then we stay till quite late then go lorhs.. then like dat lorhs. reached home damn full siarhs.. think gained dunnoe how many kilo siarhs. alamakk.. haiis.. =(( tomorrow tech-run at victoria threate lahs. no school for the participants. good hors.. good your head lah. from morning till ard evening mann. hopefully it will end earlier lahs. i dunno how i'm gonna sing with this real bad sore throat siarhs. dunnoe how will it go.. = hopefully will go well larhs.. ok lahs. got to go slp le. very tired siarhs.. i wonder they have guts to show their face in sch tml not siarhs. one thing i notice lahs. NO OFFENCE arhs.. is that EDUCATEDstudents are NO DIFFERENT frm normal student. EXCEPT that their STUDIES are MUCH MORE BETTER than normal students. other than studies. all are almost the same. this one arhs.. only a few knoes wad i'm talking abt lahs. the rest wont knoe. cos it's SECRET..!!! =))) ''dora #mango92 theBEAUTIFULmomentsWEshares VOLLEYBALLfreak* at 10:52 PM *** Friday, August 18, 2006 omgg.. it is really really really... SHANG NAO JING ARHS.. hhahaaa.. okokk.. really had a real LONG LONG LONG chat just now. was real fun. REAL crazyy. ENJOYED IT MAN.. =)) laugh till like siiaoo.. hhhhaaaa. it been such a long time since i had such a good chat. such a long and crazyy laughh too.. lols.. really dunnoe wad to say about it siarhs. okokok.. CRAZINESS STOP. but then. jus now ask shirley.. tml go wheree.. you knoe wad she told me.. go 3/4 pants. -.- this send me laughingg like mad siiarhs.. hhhaaaa.. go 3/4 pants. first time hear lahs. hhaaa.. and wass crazyy at tad moment.. tads whyy ii laugh even moree craziierr. hhaaaa.. okokk.. was suppose to slp early de. cos tml goingg out marhs.. then cos of the conversation.. alreadyy 1hours plus lattee lerhs.. okays lahs. got to go slp lerhs. if not tml overslpt arhs.. mati mann.. hhaaass. okays lahs.. update u guys tml. =)) goodnights.. i scared i scream when slping sia.. hhaaa.. scared will laugh out loudly alsoo.. hhaaaas.. okok.. STOP HEREE.. CRAZINESS. =)) ''d0ra #mango92 theBEAUTIFULmomentsWEshares VOLLEYBALLfreak* at 11:36 PM *** |
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